deathbynonchalence

2007-08-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

Time to take this blog off life support...its like totally being stuffed with filler entries.

its my 200th post btw.
and around 4 years since i first started to blog.

haha

2007-08-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

Finally 18!!! ^_^ officially an adult!!

today was spent
waking up for school
travelling to school
doing work in school
keeping quiet about my bday so that i don't get torn/dunked
failed at 4.30pm when wayne and nicholas long heard it ( i think i'm screwed )

and finally...
DOING CWO!!! AJC GAVE ME ONE HOUR OF SWEEPING AS A PRESENT

thank you all for your bday wishes...but try not to remind me of the impending A levels in every message! T_T

hah...

2007-07-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

Jiraiya the Sannin Lord
reminds me of Feudal Japan.

2007-06-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

maths....differenciation & applications, MI, DE, MS, graphing

chem...nothing. maybe organic chem

geog...part of hydro

econs...absolutely nothing

gp...read newsweek=_="

SHIT LARH I AM SCROOOOOWWWWWEEEEEDDD

2007-06-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

my life...hasnt been exciting enough to blog about but...

watched Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End twice last week. Simply fell in love with the trilogy so i watched the first two again. =p

and changed my blogsong to the theme of my favourite character. The music simply suits his persona: dark, imposing, with an underlying softness. The music is really soft at some parts so turn up your volume ^_^ after 1 minute...get it down cuz...your eardrums may burst

This thursday-saturday is the wushu camp. After that...its time to 30% study, 40% play, 30% randomness. =D

no way i'll sit for more than 2hrs a day at the table. That. Is. BEYOND me

hee~~!

been reading the papers. there's an ongoing debate about carbon emmission standards going on in the Review section, which is quite interesting. All the talk about unfairness & different circumstances & energy & polar melts. @_@

this is what i call imba. He killed an army =)

2007-06-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

14th day of the holidays...and so far only 3 days of afternoon sun...

how the *&(*& am i gonna get darker. =_+"

2007-05-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

My current mindset...a lone wolf watching & waiting for dawn.

2007-05-20T01:45:00.001+08:00

i lost weight =_="

think i have to go lift weights again....

2007-05-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

I'm sick....with a 38.5degree fever in the morning.

By afternoon fall to 38

and now...at 9pm. It's 37.

WTH!!! I dowan go school sia...recover so fast. This morning was like dying then now i can actually breathe thru my nose already.

Anyway...I officially screwed my Napha. Didnt turn up for the test today. So now have to go bak during June holidays for stupid makeup training. Wth...10 pull-ups & 11minute 2.4km. And i need to do makeup cos u nvr turn up for the actual test. Sadded.

Yesterday was Mothers' Day. My EXTENDED family went to kbox to sing. In the end, i think only 8 out of over 20 people touched the mike. the four of us who are above 16....my dad and uncle, and grandparents.

Actually, there were 3 others that sang. But I'll call it noise. 3 of the younger ones sang "my bonnie", "mouse love rice(lao shu ai da mi)" & "shi shang zi you mama hao(cuz its mothers day)". Imagine one tune with 3 voices singing at different tempos. Discord prevails. Think I have the video...might upload it someday. Its a good laugh.

Anyway my voice was like deep baritone during the singing cos of the sore throat. So Jay Chou's "Crysemthemum Platform" was like 3 octaves lower. Haha. In the end i gave up trying to sing. Rah~~~!!!

ok...back to that gp essay. 1 more content paragraph and conclusion!!!

2007-05-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past. Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?
Student: There is no future in it.

....................

Teacher: Ted, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how much would your father still have?
Ted: $10.
Teacher: You don't know maths.
Ted: You don't know my father!

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Mother: David, come here.
David: Yes, mum?
Mother: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
David: But I will only get my report book tomorrow.
Mother: I know that. But I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, so I am scolding you now.

...................
Father: Why did you fail your mathematics test?
Son: On Monday, teacher said 3+5=8
Father : So?
Son: On Tuesday, she said 4+4=8 And on Wednesday, she said 6+2=8. If she can't make up her mind, how do I know the right answer?

......................

A mother and son were doing dishes while the father and daughter were watching TV in the living room. Suddenly, there was a loud crash of breaking plates, then complete silence. The daughter turned to look at her father.
Daughter: It's mummy!
Father: How do you know?
Daughter: She didn't say anything.

...........

Man: How old is your father?
Boy: As old as me
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He became a father only when I was born

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Waiter: I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.
Customer: Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.

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Teacher: Simon, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did u copy his?
Simon: No, teacher, it's the same dog!

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Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!
Son: That's why I say she's no good!

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Teacher: "Where were u born?"
Student: "Singapore , Sir."
Teacher: "Which part?"
Student: "All of me, Sir."

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A teacher was asking her class: "What is the difference between 'unlawful' and 'illegal'?"
Only one hand shot up.
"Ok, answer, Joan" said the teacher.
"'unlawful' is when u do something the law doesn't allow and 'illegal' is a sick eagle."

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Teacher: "How come you do not comb your hair?"
Ah Kow: "No comb, Sir."
Teacher: "Use your dad's then."
Ah Kow: "No hair, Sir."

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A boy came home from school with his exam results.
"What did u get?" asked his father.
"My marks are under water," said the boy.
"What do u mean 'under water'?"
"They are all below 'C' level"

2007-05-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

its gonna be a long journey, searching on and on

2007-04-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna give a damn about who reads it...this is my viewpoint...

Today...didn't go for chem tutorial. The teachers knows I'll do that every so often. So. Why. The. Fuck. Did she have to call the PD tutor, who calls me, who calls my parents. Which ends up...pft

Me: OK...i skip loh. So what u want me to do?
PD tutor: You knew the consequences beforehand so...I won't do anything lah
Mum: I know the chem tutor's a bitch but don't get into trouble lah..waste your own time
Chem tutor: Look at me. Smile. =_="

Nah bei...waste my time. Can stay home and do work b4 going back 1. kpkb. It's not even truancy 'cos I came for school, attended all but her lesson, and left the school when the official release time is over. Tch.
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I'm not a rebel without a cause. Hell, I'm not even a rebel. Just doing what I believe I can do.

2007-04-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

its a sad year for HCI gymnastics...

3rd! my god. And we actually lost to whitley secondary. Not RI, not SJI, WHITLEY

Today went to watch AJ Idol technical run. Throughout the testing random people will be going "daryl can u..." and FOUR heads will turn to look. Daryl Lim, Daryl Lim, Daryl Chan, Darrel Tan. All we lacked was Daryl Ang. Can form a band already...3 vocalists 2 guitarists. =_=

Anyway...lianghao's band not bad. But the volume needs to be adjusted. 'cos either one is too loud or the other too soft. Lianghao's voice sounded reedy too...

Then there's this 3 man acapella(sp?). Two of 'em are good but the last guy's vocal range very limited. Sounded strained.

Got Yvonne & Bangjie's singing too. The transition part not very good...you all need to coordinate more bah. Yvonne too timid alr the voice, not sure if is you dun dare or cannot blast. The bangjie's voice very gratty....

Got another duet. Real couple this one. The girl's voice power...the guy's was quite unique bah. Damn nice. Von&BJ wanna win must practice loh...

After that went to eat dinner with Liang's band. Jessica seems like a regular sotong =_+". Blur blur 1.

Feel so proud for AJC wushu team '07. Third for nationals! Losing to VJC was fucked lah...they rig the competition. MJC deserved 2nd IMO. Which reminds me...when the announcer said that VJC got Gold for A Div Boys...ALL THE JCs started to stand up and walk away...even MJC. Haha not bad. Got character. I like.

I realise that every sport I've joined has been those where one moment of glory is all you get after years of training. All or nothing. Guess this explains myself - fireworks. One single moment to impress. That's all that matters. No second tries. No comebacks.Winner-takes-all. Individualistic? undoubtly. Selfish? Nope.

it's time to settle down & start mugging for the first time in 18 years. Considering that luck got me past O levels...i doubt it'll hold for As'.

just when will one appear?

2007-04-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

hrmp....work sux

I'm not going anywhere...
not now...
when I've already found...
where i truly belong.

And where my hearts wants me to be

i'd like to say this one day

2007-04-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

we're now 3rd for boys!!
haha...in 2 days 21 points boost. not bad seh

i saw the amt of debt i own...schoolwork is scary sia. *shivers*

Not sure what i exactly want...think I've lost my sense of direction. have to get back on track but...hard leh. woops

life is getting boring...i've got friends...family...but i want more.

2007-04-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

Loads of work!

I'm not leaving...

not when I've found my place.

And where my heart wants me to be.

*stored into memory*

2007-04-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

i...screwed...up

competition jitters sucks lah. legs like jelly + injured legs = flunk

nbnbnbnbnbnbnb knnb ccb CB CB CB LP !!! @_@ X_X #_# $_$ AHH!!!

pft...

2007-04-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

I feel lost...

2007-04-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

1 week to competition.

I AM SO SCREWED!!! CAN'T DO THE STUNTS

hooo....fuck sia. hope my hips don't die on me. cant even go into lotus position now. damn freaking pain

I want to watch 300. But...I'm...not...18 yet. And I've got no bloody time next week. Or the 2 weeks after.

there are times when i wish somebody would worm herself into my heart.

2007-03-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

Today training...i'm not in grouo event for quan. o_O' knn if i knew i last friday go alr lah!

anyway wushu is now a handicapped team. Kangrui, me got injury. Si Xu is sick. Zhen En just recovered...hope he don't fall ill again.

two and a half weeks left! then i can go and discover how to tan my anti-tan skin.

And homework is so screwed.

2007-03-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

8 wushu people. 1 seaview condo.

The result?
warzone!!! Omg lah...i just come back from training. see the mess in my room. sian diao. just finish packing. MUST THANK ME HOR!!! I PROVIDE FREE CHALET WITH BREAKFAST AND ICE-CREAM.

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k...last night they came my hse at 11.30pm. Then my laptop and room kena hijack for k-box. A lot of 'tunes' come out of the room. More like disruptive sounds. Especially when bangjie and yvonne started spamming songs.

Round up of what we did
Sixu----Sick....knock out at the sofa. wake up complain hot. sleep again
Wilson---eat, laze, stone, listen song, eat, eat, roll, stone, sleep
Daryl---Find food, cook food, protect food, get food stolen, steal back food, sing a bit, see star, sleep
Kangrui---all of the above.
Bangjie---eat a bit, sing non stop. destroy my eardrums ^_^
Hwee teng---eat, laze, sing until like crying...then sleep
Yvonne---giggle, giggle, giggle, heheheheheheehehehehhehee.
Yumin---crack my tiles and make the lightings fall. say want to eat, but too lazy to move 2metre

Me and kangrui...keep talking about stars and the galaxy. He say the sun is 5billion years old. I say the UNIVERSE is 5billion years old. If the sun existed before the universe...o_O" who know the actual answer tell me. Then we talk about supernovas, blackholes...

Wilson was my supper buddy the whole night. potato chips, then big tub of ice cream, then maggi mee, after that continue eating chocolate....but no sugar rush leh

Sixu died on the sofa.

ok...sleeping position. yumin turn on lights in the living room dun let us sleep...then she ownself fall asleep.

Television
Sixu---->yvonne--->me---->wilson---->kangrui---->(balcony)
yumin(sofa)

wilson started practising nan quan in his sleep. he first whack me with his arm. then he gai bu on me. wth. then he started humming a tune. in his sleep. @_@
on my other side...yvonne suddenly started giggling. poke her never wake up so i gues...dreams?

kangrui nearly kena disfigured cos wilson's other arm nearly whack his face.
imagine if wilson slept near the bamboo poles....in the morning me and kr hanging out to dry loh.

training today...i never train cos tendon injury...again. so go roast in the sun. now my forearms red like lobster...but my face no change leh....wth. after that go chinese physician...he press here press there, then twist twist CRACK. and more cracks. crack. crack. crack. pain. ow...and now i can walk properly. haha. but my leg still weak. cannot support my weight.

After that went back ubi. me and coach tempted wilson with pizza until he finally go and get one slice. then cos nobody eats coleslaw i started eating one large one myself...and then they played a dumb game that i refuse to elaborate upon.

EXCEPT THAT WILSON AND KANGRUI GOT WHIPPED BY BANGJIE. Cos he has a joker face that distracts people from concentrating(not my words)

^_^ tmrw training. zzz dun feel like going. cant train anyway if ur leg is crippled.

THREE WEEKS LEFT TO COMPETITION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THREE DAYS LEFT TO TERM 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and ajc sucks. rejecting a 6 pointer chong cheng high student who got into HCI but wanted to get back into AJC.
Complete and utter stupidity.

A principal that refuses to meet the student after she waited for 8 hours or more.
Baboons are no longer protected animals.

suanning said student for getting lost in a school i know like the back of my hand, and escaping her beating.
Priceless.

hah...that's lame. its 1.37am. Naruto shippuuden episode 5 not out yet. Neither is chapter 346. Check again tmrw

P.S. My english standard is dropping. I need to brush up on it...wth i got 28/50 for GP essay.

2007-03-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

Nearly vomit during Pe today...bloody hell

Conked out after lunch...skipped GP lecture to go Nexus sleep. Was out cold for 3hrs so i missed chemsitry......again. And when i woke up...landis was gone. james was gone. nicholas was gone. 20 councillors using the nexus to practice their skit for O2. o_O. WTH CAN...wake up in the midst of a rehearsal then pak tao "yo" me.

Complete disorientation ensued. So i zoned out for 5mins watching them...then i somehow fell back to sleep. In the end some council girl woke me up & told me nexus closing.

training not that xiong today. ^_^ I can still walk and jump. woah

still can't draw the damn thing out......this is infuriating. &#$&@%&*%$%$!!!

2007-03-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

2 days to holidays...then no need to see Ip or Ong for 1 week. *joy*

No training camp in school during hols. The dumbfuck teacher-in-charge told us that the only time we can have our camp is in JUNE. which is like...after competition alr. What's the purpose? Old...derelict...oughtta be thrown away. Maybe MRT train will run over her at YCK station...

Today econs tuition...at least 50 people. 3 of us packed all the way to the front, then got packer further to the wall. @_@

Training is good...you get so tired that once you've eaten and showered...u knock out for one night of uninterrupted sleep. Dun care about homework ^_^

Inopportunity stinks. I'll be giving up for now. *grumbles*

2007-03-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

Here comes the competition trainings!!!
whee~~~!!!

i cant feel my legs.
Ow.

5 WEEKS TO GO!!! SURVIVE!

2007-03-01T19:33:00.000+08:00

just some of the pics...will upload whole album someday and post the link here.

2007-02-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

Hate the weather this week...
humid...hot...stuffy...
Everybody doing exercise like wanna die alr. And its worse inside the lion...

TOMMORROW!!!! FINAL MAJOR PERFORMANCE!!!! GOGO BANGJIE AND SIXU!!! waisoon better not screw up else I'll have to sub in for him then I'll be doing NON-STOP.

Shiok....??? Thursday cannot get outta bed alr. Waist broken. hee~~~!

Last friday we went to my dad's office for a performance. The staff at his company filmed both our lions.

During the "cai qing" part, you're supposed to slowly advance on the oranges...then push it to the lion butt to peel. What Si Xu did was walk up to the oranges...stare at it for 2 seconds...then walk OVER them and sit down. My dad called it "lion laying eggs". 'Cos he looked like a mother hen.

Then for the "Daryl Lion"...Bangjie went up to the oranges, quickly roll it behind and then fall on his butt. So i got knocked over and from outside u could see my legs pointing to the sky...got knocked on my back.

Wth...ninja turtle x_x

Pictures + Video will be uploaded...sometime soon. camera's with dad.

2007-02-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time ago in a forbidden love, in a bohemian dream

Two that took the chance to cross the icy mountain tops, across a fiery stream

How can you stop the moon that pulls the sea

How can you stop a love that's meant to be

How can you stop innocence once it's tasted beauty

Once upon a dream ago in a bohemian love, at a forbidden time

Two that took the chance to cross a boundary made of hate, across the firing line

No one can stop the moon that pulls the sea

No one can stop a love that's meant to be

No one can stop innocence once it's tasted beauty

2007-02-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to look foward to the march holidays...

Skipped chemistry tutorial on friday again...went to the hall and listened to tracy's piano playing. For training that day...self induced PT. Slack like hell...

My pullups suck these past 2 weeks. Can't get past 5...

After training went to uncle's new house. Nice penthouse ^_^. Awful dogs @_@. 4 dogs...1 tried to lick my feet, 1 nearly got trampled by me. Potential hazards...

my cousin called my hair a rambutan...WTF!!!!
Your girlfriend looks like cleopetra...what's with that bob-cut thingy? =p *glad he dont read my blog*

This morning was uneventful. Except that i had to go to the temple 'cos i "fan tai sui" again. Meaning...i offended the Jade Emperor. Oh just kill me will you? for 17 years I offend you 14 times. Must be some kinda vendetta against me. Was having a talk with my parents over breakfast. Got the go-ahead to get a girlfriend from them. (lol....at least that means i won't get butchered if they found out). Messaged jacqueline 'bout it. Her reply? "They suck"

WHACK YOU ARH!!!

2007-02-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

OMG

HAIR

IS

GONE

!!!

!!!!!

!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!

!!!!!

!!!

WTF....pms-ing hairdresser

2007-02-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

$456

ka-ching!!!!

2007-02-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

CNY:

day 1:
slept at 5.30am cos had to keep vigil for parents' longiviety. I saw the sun start rising, so went to sleep.

woke at noon. shower, eat, blah.
Go maternal grandma's house for lunch.
eat eat
Go paternal grandma's house(its just downstairs...)
eat eat

3 very very bored people. Namely me, my 16 & 21yr old cousin, went to the gym downstairs. Ran and trained ourselves to the ground, showered, then dozed off on the sofa until my grandad woke us up to gamble.

I LOST MONEY
$20--->$32--->$2--->$12--->$8--->$2--->$8--->$2--->$8--->$2--->$1--->$2--->$0

wth...
There's this thing called false hope
There goes 1/3 of last week's pocket money. And who was the banker? My FATHER!!!
HE GIMME ANG BAO THEN EAT MY MONEY~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!

2007-02-15T01:00:00.001+08:00

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You don't really value loyalty.
In your opinion, friendship should be earned.
If you don't agree with someone, it doesn't matter how close you are.
You'll let them (and everyone else know) exactly what you think.

Honesty:

You don't really value honesty.
You do value getting your way, no matter what.
And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.
A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)

Generosity:

You value generosity a fair amount.
You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.
Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.
But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!

Humility:

You value humility a fair amount.
You tend to be an easy going, humble person.
But occasionally your ego takes over.
You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance a fair amount.
You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas.
You have very few prejudices that you're aware of.
And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

2007-02-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

Today has been interesting ^_^

first off in the morning...i took the bus and met my primary 2 classmate. from a little girl into a young beauty alr @_@ wth i still remembered i used to pull her pony tail cos she always stepped on my shoes. Now we're 18years old...time flies.

At YCK MRT...saw (somebody No. 1) with (somebody No. 2). (Somebody No. 1) knows that (somebody No. 3) likes (somebody No. 2) and once said he wouldn't chase (somebody No. 2).
*cocks an eyebrow*

Then in school...Valerie Chan didnt come. Cos of some funny course. So for civics tmrw we getting susan leong to come in...omfg from bulldog face to BABOON FACE. With puffball hair.

During recess...auntie from western stall spammed me with wedges, fries, chicken cutlet & coleslaw for $2.50. Bet she was making a loss. Wenzhao saddened that auntie was biased.

Day passed thru...blahblah. James showed up at 2pm for PE. After missing one whole morning. Then during PE the new teacher asked us to run 3 laps around the track, with the first 1/2 lap at under 42 seconds. So we asked a tracker to pace us and guess what? He ran at 30 seconds. SUCKER!!! No wonder my butt hurt like hell from overexertion.

Econs tuition. Yoga master is back. There's this guy from NYJC. Taller than me, FAR paler than me, FAR skinnier than me. He loves to stretch in class...so during lessons we see him with his hands up in the air...waving around. Cracking neck, knuckles, back repeatedly. And asking random questions that even the teacher ignores. So the 4 AJC guys that attend the lessons imitate him action for action. Everybody had a good laugh. The NYJC guy was clueless. The teacher was pissed at the constant disruption.

Then my mum fetched me home and we went to buy supper. I got honked at for squeezing thru 3 car lanes. Came back and got a "U DUN WANNA LIVE ALREADY ISIT" from empress dowager.

Here comes CNY!!! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ Both earnt and recieved. Hehahahehheahehaeha!!

Valentine's Day will be spent going for delta camp instructor interview, make-up pe, and probably swimming at YCK swimming pool with some people...

Was talking to Jacqueline just now about our single status...here's how it went(approximately)

J: Any date?
D: With my interviewer =p
J:(proceeds to ask about delta camp stuff...blah blah... i reply...blah blah)

D: Any guys after you?
J: They're smarter stronger and better looking than u loh!!
D: U wearing sunglasses........
J: Jealous leh u...i bet got girls fawning after u 1 loh
*no reply to that for 5 mins...how witty can u be replying that???*

J: So how many girls?
D: AJC...CMI 95%
D: Anyway I too busy being lion butt to bother
J: You're still so mean...
J: Eh!!! V day I'm going out with my VJC classmates. Want to 'bump' into me?
D: U want me to hook up with your girls...?
J: Els you become rusty in AJC!!!!
D: Might as well be rusty for 3 years. Got NS leh. hur~~~~~

Jac ... YOU ARE A trillion times more evil than me WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1) Me...not...desperate
2) Me...no $$$$$$$$$. And u know it
3) And you've seen the picture i posted last week. Hell it's even your display picture.

ABCDEFG
A Boy Can Do Everything For Girl.

GFEDCBA
Girl Forgets Everything Done and Catches new Boy Again.

GIRL POWER FOR THE WORLD!!! Sad Case Guys~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-10T13:30:00.000+08:00

Man was born free for he has the freedom of will to choose his life and course of actions, but he is bound by the natural laws of the world and can only operate freely within them. Because he is not omnipotent. It would be imperative not to confuse liberty with freedom of will. Freedom of will is an idealised concept that is itself not achievable for its conception was brought about by the very constrains of the human psychological structure. Liberty, on the other hand, is the operation of independant will within the natural and synthetic restrictions. It the the freedom to choose and create options that are innately possible, and operate these options to achieve a final goal.

This is the article i was reading...haven't finished but SO FAR that's what i deduce from it. 30% through

http://mises.org/story/2459#7

Was reading an online article about the human concious...cheemalogy.I just found a new hobby---understanding this damn article.

Wne to weight myself...60kg!! 2kg in 6 weeks. ^_^ not bad

2007-02-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

10 weeks to napha...

GET A GOLD!!!!

2007-02-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

8 days till lion dance performance...rehearsal is tommorrow.

I gave up trying to get the photos from Irvin so asked Sylvia to send them to me...

Hamster's being "tau pok" by us. ^_^

2007-02-05T03:27:00.000+08:00

It's an unfair world...guys have to
1) chase the girl
2) earn money
3) treat the girl to meals and stuff
4) feed their bigger appetites
5) go to the gym to get a better figure...then go every alternate day to maintain it.
6) keep the girl
7) slog for dough while not neglecting the girl
8) think up new ways to keep a girl intrigued
9) be dragged to do some housework

girls have to
1) do make up
2) exercise mildly to keep toned...I don't know how lifting 3kg is "exercising"
3) PMS
4) wonder why the guy doesn't call you when he's working
5) twirl the guy around her pinky 'cos no guy can resist a girl he loves
6) tell a guy to be more original
7) drag a guy to share the housework

In conclusion...guys should be paid more and have 36hrs/day. But who am i to bitch? I got lucky twice.

allow me to indulge in some 'softie' posts... I've been trying to solve a damnable sudoku puzzle for the past 2hrs. And i just cant get it...there are two totally BLANK rows to fill in. That's 9! x 2 possibilities. My brain doesn't exactly have that computing power.

speaking of brains...its 3.35am now. I'm so screwed for school tmrw. Oh btw to the wushu people that read my blog. 16th of february were going out of school for lion dance! $$$$$$ to be earned! Coach is sponsoring the lorry and lion dance apparel. And my dad decides to donate ang baos to the wushu fund instead of to his son. Oh well...I'll get by on $50/week.

2007-02-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

Conclusion regarding daryl's skin...

it has a burn time of 10mins. went out into the burning sun this afternoon. reentered the shade 20mins later. Am red as a lobster now. WTH?!??!

2007-02-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

went to jjc carnival today. travelled a freaking 4hrs back and forth. And guess what? Irvin decides to ignore us 1/2 the time when he's the one who invited us over. His hairspraying shop did a wonderful imitation of a PINEAPPLE on his hair. So i added some orange streaks to it. Too bad didnt get any visual evidence...

you wasted our time and money and energy!!! Yogi, Gary & Daryl DEMANDS compensation!!!

Oh....and send the pictures of yogi's bday kbox to us!!! Why do u need a cd to access your HP is beyond me.

2007-01-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

Jc 2 life combined with trainings and tuitions, and a godawful travelling time....hell on earth. I wonder if i can bunk at my uncle's house in AMK.

*needs a pocket money raise...i'm eating $15/day. Recess 1 plate of rice. Lunch 1 plate of rice. Dinner after training...1 bowl of noodles and 1 plate of rice. And it's 0nly hawker centre and canteen food. Coming home at 10.40pm everyday doesn't give me time or energy to cook my own food either...

stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house! stay at uncle's house!

His son owes me 34 naruto comics anyway. that's 34x5=$170

Homework is coming by the truckload. Not coping well at all...need more time. 3hrs of travelling stinks badly.

You simply refuse to be available by coincidence don't you?

2007-01-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

skipped school today. woke at 6.40am...went to catch a cab at 6.50am.

7 cabs flew by. all on call the moment my hand come up. Bloody hell....i gave up at 7.10am. went home to sleep till 1pm. woke up...went to katong for lunch. came back, went to the gym, then shower and off to tuition i went.

me james and lianghao crapped for 3hrs about the various...aspects of the human anatomy. Then i proceeded to rot my butt off sitting 13 all the way to marine parade. And now here i am on my bed blogging randomly.

TMRW I NEED TO CHAIR THE GP SPEAK EZ!!! Naseemah did a humourous job chairing last week. How is a guy without a natural funny bone in his body supposed to match up? dark humour and sarcasm i can dish out in spades. But realy humour...how to coax a laugh and not a smirk?

Some funny, unknown person with a downright WEIRD sense of communication somehow got my phone number...not sure if its a prankster.

Message 1: Hello Little Daryl!!! My reply: wth? who are you?
Message 2: Do you want to be Big daryl or Little Daryl? I did not reply the msg.
Message 3: Do you even know who i am? wtf!!!?!?!?!

Maybe i should borrow a pair of daggers from the wushu room.

K...its 11.50pm now. I'll study for maths till 12.40, then prepare the GP speech before hitting the sack. Hopefully you'll come online before then, but i doubt. Its your working day after all.

The thing about playing the game...is that NOTHING is ever certain. No fixed rules, no structured approach. Its thinking on your feet that counts. Such an electrifying thrill. The downside? There goes your mental and physical energy...all for one long term goal. So score it big, or don't bother trying.

2007-01-28T23:05:00.001+08:00

today...went kbox with yogi, gary, irvin, pui kit.

blasted the volume. broke a cup. smuggled macdonalds and drinks in.

picture up tmrw.

but for now...

2007-01-27T14:30:00.000+08:00

2 weeks after training constantly...gained 1 kg. o_O

if i'd know muscle mass adds that much weight that quickly i woulda started last year.

school been ok so far. I'm coping with gp and geog(quite predictably), maths i haven't started lagging behind which is one helluva an accomplishment. chemistry has crashed and burnt 3 times. only reason i go for friday tutorials is 'cos vincent will bug and bug and bug me not to skip. And econs? bloohhhhh stupid carolina honkey ip should just jump off the platform at YCK mrt station.

wushu training started. side splits are actually pyramids when i do them..front and back not too bad. 5 duan changquan in critical condition. all 3 of us cant even get the first 1/5 perfect.

10 months to go! hiong ah!!!!

2007-01-20T15:51:00.000+08:00

A New Day Has Come

I was waiting for so long

For a miracle to come

Everyone told me to be strong

Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times

I knew I'd make it through

And the world thought I'd had it all

But I was waiting for you

Hush now I see a light in the sky

Oh it's almost blinding me

I can't believe I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears

Let it fill my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

When it was dark now there's light

Where there was pain now's there's joy

Where there was weakness I found my strength

All in the eyes of a boy

Hush now I see a light in the sky

Oh it's almost blinding me

I can't believe I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears

Let it fill my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears

Let it fill my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

Hush now I see a light in your eyes

All in the eyes of a boy

I can't believe I've been touched by an angel with love

I can't believe I've been touched by an angel with love

Hush now

A new day

2007-01-19T02:27:00.000+08:00

2.30am and i'm not asleep

why? cos stupid flu & fever medicine K.O. me at 6pm. and instead of sleeping for 12hrs i woke at 11pm. and couldn't sleep again. =_=

be ready for panda daryl

2007-01-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

day 6:
taking a break. me gonna die soon. *sniffle, hack, cough...ow*

Angels die everyday. You ruined yourself.

2007-01-18T00:46:00.000+08:00

The ultimate planner is one who is completely detached from his emotions and biasness, who percieves, evaluates and discards information as he sees fit, structures a flexible plan that fully compliments the situation, implementors and objectives. And finally, achieves victory that is assured for the objective has been led to believe that the beginnings of said situation originated from oneself, and not a foreign influence.

day 5:
ouch

2007-01-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

The below post was written in the middle of the night after a particularly electrifying day. Eccentricity and elitism will be present. You have been warned so don't come and kao bei me or I
Will
Use
A
Spear
And
Shove
It
Down
Your
Throat
There are i think 5 spears in the wushu room so that makes 5 potential victims.

Goal for self:

hit 65kg by end of this year. Current weight...57kg. Method to do so: Meng meng lift weights and hope that somehow muscle mass can add up to 8kg. Cos I'll never ever get fat. EVER....

win wulin in 3 subjects by june! So far GP and Geog alr above her. Next step: econs. Maths ah...take it as it comes =p

not pon any lectures. sleeping is allowed. as in doing work during said lecture *hint hint useless econs*

grow 1 more bloody cm to 175!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! last year 173, this year 174. ARGH.

let all e geog students eat my dust like last june. hah! don't believe hwa chong student can't win some randon guy.

regain my flexibility...aka be able to do splits again. stupid tendon injury totally stiffened me up.

run the entire length of x country for one =p no stopping 1/2 way thru.

get my fringe beyond my cheekbone without being caught. It's currently just below my eyebrow.

get a tan that actually stays beyond 3 days. will give conpromise cos my anti-tan skin essentially self-bleaches.

get 265cm for SBJ.

win edward in a banter. stupid lit/his student. grrrr rwar.

get Izza and his gang of malay/indian/chinese to STFU in nexus so that everybody else can sleep.

kill yong yong if she laughs into my ear. Thankfully she isnt in 3306 anymore or it'll be more than highly highly highly likely.

NOT go clubbing until after prom night. Last year burn too much money.

kick boonteck/weixue/boonkeng/jonathan into the longkang outside the school for being plain weird.

BURN DOWN AJC ONCE I GET A LEVEL RESULTS!!!

fall for a girl. and get her.

2007-01-14T15:52:00.000+08:00

Rain rain rain rain rain

I wonder if you have any idea what you do to me, even though we've never really talked face to face and all your small talk is just the banter of regular friends.

2007-01-14T07:48:00.000+08:00

Back with another post again. It's now 7.50am, with a chilly breeze by the coast. Opened all the windows and I feel like I'm standing in the face of a storm. (my paper keeps flying off the table)

I had a sudden urge to just write about people...

Lets see...An Xuan. Wonder how he's doing...all i ever see is xiaopang even tho they live tgt. He's in rugby of all things...beanpole aax is a rugby player!

Bryan...JJC council board. He's essentially ignored us for the better part of the year. Hrmp.

Marcus...Good riddance to him.

Chen Shao. He'll probably hand me my ass on a wooden platter during the wushu competition. Last i heard, he's in the same category as me. Meaning that I. Stand. No. Chance. At. All.

Edward. Ajc drummer wor! Still Hairy Potter that makes music magical.

Pui Kit. He's hardly changed except that he now walks around with his specs off trying to look like da coolth dude around HCI. Puikit, phuket, hamster, hongky hamster, hammy, hamtaro!

Noel. With his 'posh' chong francis noel name. It's a total surprise that he actually broke his voice over the past year, dressed like a guy, played dota and actually talks us into going for LAN. His english is definately still miles ahead of mine.

Luo Jun aka luo zum. Our little drumlet-slash-drummer is now the centrefold for NYJC's CO recruitment ad! And he's got his own little fan club of girls(though some are just fugly)

Eric. Haven't heard from him this year but during the December holidays he made me burn at LEAST $130 just going out to eat/play/hang/whatever with him. Rich kid killed by wallet. Hope JJC soccer's coach works him into the ground. Then he'll have horse-sized thighs to own all of us with. HAH!

Zhi Wei....is....now....a....sista. Hangs with girls, talks to girls, acts like taitai...dress like tai tai. And essentially flaunts his affluence in the face of the other 4P ajcians making me want to throw him into the fountain.

Gary. Yogi's partner in crime when irritating me and irvin on msn. And ALL THREE OF THEM keep asking me to log on to play trickster when my laptop can't even handle it. FAIRY FOH FHONG FAN!!!

Huxun is farming in qing zhou. tha

Irvin. 2nd lowest level player of our 4-man party. Don't worry potato/mango/strawberry/coconut...I'll log in and pump u to the skies. Hee~~~!!!

Jensen. NJC Choir boy. One of the few choir guys i know who actually has enough testosterone to be considered a guy. Enjoying life in NJ=p

Wee Siang. I wonder how our class magician is doing...

Fergen. Hardly heard of him. Hope he's doing good in JJC. Our last convo was about how the 2 malay girls in his PW group try to look busy during WR discussion.

Yi Liang. Hip in hc, unhip in cj, no more girls want him...awwww. This guy's amateur literary works make mine look like kindergarden drabbles.

Daryl. Hyper since the 2nd week of 2007. Can't sleep at night. Insomia? But i function perfectly well in the day. And I've upgraded from playing with knives chairs and explosives to playing with spears, swords, broadswords, poles, lion heads, tables, sofas and radioactive substances(lol)

Alex. Didnt go to his recent performance. Dang. Resident breakdancer of 4P. He stays 2 bus stops from me but never ever came to my house before. Why? COS HE DOESNT LOG ON TO MSN AND I'M TOO LAZY TO SMS HIM! CIAO

Xian Yong. NJC OGL. Currently acting pai kia with brownish golden hair. Another choir boy. Not as normal as jensen though. He's too loud. But he's our xianxian.

Yongjie. Resident Herbivour. Has the longest hair of all of us cos he went to poly. smashing thru all the polytecnics in table tennis. pong pong pong pong. And bugs me incesstantly to pass him level 100 items.

Chia Wei. Disappeared off the radar. Totally.

Yi Jie. Totally mad about his new love. Dragged me and steoriod boy aka Eric all around PS to shop for 1st month anniversary gifts. Bugger.

Poon Shi. Feedback from yijie is that he's being despised in SAJC. Awww

Wenjie. Our 0.101 tonnage hippopotamus joined rugby and now looks like he's in the process of becoming a body builder. Got V-shape liao wor. Not rectagular anymore. *evil*

Kian Hao. Lost his scholarship. Ouch.

Zhou Ren. Star player of JJC bball. Hooo~~~! There goes the championship dreams.

Alvina. B-baller that is. Indian. Yes I'm racist.
Naseemah. Don't talk to her. Another indian.
Sri Mohan. Another Indian.
Farhana. Fellow OGL. Malay. One of the more tame malays around ajc.

Wenzhao. 2nd runner-up for heaviest friend of daryl. He's 0.101 tonnes. Quitted Harmoc.

Kelvin. Sprained his neck like 2 days ago. Tried to do pull-ups in that condition. Lol. His soccer team got owned by yijie's soccer team in a friendly.

Choon Hang. Emo, tries to look cool buay cool den sibei dulan cat high boy.

James. A bottomless pit that puts me on a starving day to shame. Loud, friendly and an overall eccentric yet sane person. Meaning that instead of repelling ppl he actually goes around with one gang.

Yu Jia. I was in PW, GP, Econs with her. I'm in GP, Geog with her now. Wtf. She'll say i bully her into doing all the work again. Claim unchallenged.

Wu Lin. Eh...dunno. Ex Pw group mate.

Wan Ding. Even thou stay 3 bus stops apart never take the same bus/train ever.

Lay Kuan. Supposedly scolds everybody and intimidates everybody. Try me...pig.

Sylvia. Friend of Tiffany...1st 3mths classmate. Eh...dunno. Don't talk much either.

Bangjie...another daryl. head over heels in love. And my lion head. I'm the lion butt.

Yvonne. Resident cutie. Her bf is actually from HC. Anderson sec guy go hc. Hc guy cant go hc. EGO BLOW! T_T

Kangrui. Toy Soldier Captain. This one's a real drumlet. Not drummer. =p

Hwee Teng. Big goldish eyes. Kai Fond's classmate. Auntified.

Si Xu. Keeps making me want to snip off his fringe and meld with my own. Doesnt the school have a practice of shaving the heads of rebels? Oh wait...I'll get shaved too.

Nyuk Min. Let me introduce you to my good friend. MY FIST.

Wilson. Boy boy that cant grow up. Whassup with that dota addiction?

Yun Quan. Looks guai. Acts guai. Dont actually think she's that guai.

Hong Chia. Taekwondo sia. Probably the buffest of us all.

Jo Ee. Eh hem...smiles sometimes?

Alvin. I think he's another natural host. He actually hosted the farewell ceremony for Jc2s.

Xian Ping. New hairstyle rendered her urecognisable.

Wai Soon. NO comments. Other than revolting.

Cheong Siong. Supposed to be from HC. *glances up and down*. Nope. Not a chance. BUT HE IS.

Rain. Has a new bf and takes a gazillion pictures to put all over he blog. Haven't seen her for a while.
Jacqueline. Still my closest female friend =)
the next name...I'll get back to you in a few months.

So there you have it! took me 50mins to write it all

2007-01-14T06:33:00.000+08:00

When you sleep at 2am and endure a fitful night of sleep only to wake at 6.30 am completely charged...it can't be normal. More so coming from the 'laidback king' of the class & wushu. Listening to a few songs now...

真心英雄 by Jackie
梁山伯与茱丽叶 by Gary
三國戀 by Tank
玩美 by Jolin
舞娘 by Jolin

Heaven by DJ Sammy
Hips Don't Lie by Shakira

Dearest by Ayumi Hamasaki
Night of Fire by Ayumi Hamasaki
Heaven by Ayumi Hamasaki
End of the World by Ayumi Hamasaki
Real Emotion by Koda Kumi

This playlist will last for ard 40minds. In the meantime...I'm literally twitching in my bed. That'll be the 6th night I've had less than 6hours worth of sleep and I'm not tired. How did hyperactivity come at the age of 17 1/2 for me anyway?!??! Most of the time its more more 7 1/2. But thankfully i can control myself. Yet Daryl doing random fidgits occasionally is totally out of character for him...

Somebody help me channel this excessive energy into studies please. I have my own conclusion for the origin of this electrifying feeling. I felt it...several months ago after one korean trip.

who would've thought you'd occupy even my sleeping mind

2007-01-13T11:09:00.000+08:00

Sakura had wondered, she had always wondered about the thing called death. In her short life only consisting of sixteen healthy years, she had experienced death and close encounters with death herself. However, somehow, when she was the one dying she never really minded the fact that she was leaving. She was sure that many people felt that way, or at least – those who had been close to dying. However, there was a young boy that she never quite understood. He had forever, in a long time screamed, yelled, proclaimed as loudly as he could, how he was never going to die.
Sakura didn’t mind if she was going to die.
They say you shouldn’t decide to die until you have fulfilled your dreams – Sakura was a dreamer, but didn’t stay as one. Because one time, after the departure of Sasuke, Kakashi told her without a hint of lie in his voice, that she was an idealist. She didn’t understand him at first, because she had been dreaming of the perfect wedding, the perfect children, and the perfect husband – but somehow, along the lines she chose a life that would never fulfil these ideas. Sakura really loved Sasuke and she were willing to die for him, that is how she figured out she didn’t mind dying – as long as it was for Sasuke-kun.
However, during the years, as she continued to punch the air in a desperate attempt to reach her teacher, that she finally understood the reason why her teacher didn’t mind dying. She was old and all the people she had lost was those she cared for. Sakura wasn’t stupid, she knew that she had precious people too, but the reason why Tsunade didn’t mind was because someone was waiting for her.
Sakura had been standing in the fields as she watched the clouds drift by, wondering if someone would be waiting for her when she died, or if she would have to wait for them. Her thoughts stopped when a blond-haired boy took her hand and led her down to the local ramenbar, strangely when he did; she had an extreme urge to smile.
Then there was another time, as she sat over the body of the Kazekage. She had seen pale people before, and she had seen dead people too – it was just the fact the way the people around her acted. Nothing was perfect, and nothing was harmony, and that is why he was so mad – the blonde-haired boy. She had never been the one to stop him from getting angry, she just led him be, she always did. So, when she watched the boy get so pained, inside of her she wondered if Gaara had wanted to die. Most likely not – that was when she began to realise the reason why people want to live, most of them. They had something they looked forward too, they had something to cherish, and they had dreams.
Sakura’s dreams were not that uncommon, they could get Sasuke back, and they could get happy. However, as Kakashi had said before, Sakura was an idealist. When Sakura was an idealist she thought that he meant, that she dreamed about a white-wedding, perfect children and family – she was wrong, Kakashi knew that Sakura somehow behind her shell, was an idealist because she didn’t dream about her own dreams, she dreamt about others. It wasn’t her fault that she fell in love with Sasuke, it was because all the other girls dreamt about him too – and as an insecure girl Sakura was destined to follow the others. So that is why she gave up her and Ino’s dream, so she could become a part of another dream.
When Sakura really fell deeply in love with Sasuke, that is a complete different thing – just as she fell hopelessly in love with her other teammate, that is why she led him lead her by hand. When Sakura fell in love the first time, Sakura was the definition of an idealist, everything was so perfect as it could be, they would talk, chat – love. However, Sasuke is not meant to love – Kakashi is not meant to love – Naruto is not meant to love. So when did she stop being a dreamer? That was when the ideal image in her head didn’t become herself, but everything else – that is why she suddenly didn’t mind dying all of sudden.
You should not misunderstand her, she was nothing from suicidal, she loved to live, but she would have nothing to regret if she should pass away. Was it because she had never really thought about other people’s feelings?
So the day, years after Sasuke had left, when Naruto stood before her door, drenched from top to toe, because it had been raining, she thought she really was going to die. Of course Sakura loved her team-mate with all of her heart – and she knew it was returned, but she had never thought about being intimate. Sakura was twenty, Naruto was nineteen, because today it was the ninth of October, two hours more and Naruto would be the same age as her.
That didn’t really explain why he was there, and she didn’t even know why. He was just so wet and rainy, that it seemed like the usually orange colour, was not orange anymore. What was missing?
So when he right there, in the middle of the street suddenly proclaiming he loved her, Sakura didn’t know how to take it. When he began his awkward clumsy speech about how he wanted to live with her and how he wanted to kiss her, in a very un-narutoish way, she simply closed the door with a slam. Sakura had never been the type that dealt with these kind of things well when it came unexpectedly. She was scared – and now, for a reason unknown, she did mind when it came to death.
So that was the reason, why she just as quick as she slammed the door close opened it again. He was strange to look at, and he would get a cold if continued to stand there. So Sakura let him in.
Naruto had been in her house twice before, and he never really wanted to be there – the whole shop on the first floor was strange, and her mother was like Sakura and he never met her father. He was a business man of some sort, so he was hardly never home. He always walked up the stairs first, because Sakura tended to like small skirts and Naruto was decent enough to give her that sort of privacy.
She ignored his propose and came with cookies and tea, she apologized for having no ramen. Naruto as blinded as he was told her it was okay, that he didn’t mind. So they sat there, and Sakura gave him a towel and turned on the television. Sakura was an idealist, so she watched the channels where dreams became reality. Before Sakura knew what had happened, the cookies were gone and with a gentle smile she went to pick up another tray of them – she just couldn’t stay mad at the blond-haired boy. She liked him of course.
So she walked downstairs and came back.
It happened a lot after that, snowing, raining, sunny, he would stand there, but he didn’t propose babies, he just wanted to enjoy her company.
Sakura didn’t mind dying, and everyone would think that went against all idealists’ ideas of perfect harmony. That was never the case of Sakura – but it was herself she didn’t mind dying, all the other people she knew would cause her not only a heartache.
With Naruto bleeding in her arms, she came to the realisation that she had been wrong. To love someone is painful, it might be worth it the while they live. So is that the reason she screamed curses at him, wanting him to understand that she was pained.
Naruto is a stubborn person, so she needed to press him down in the mud and force him to lie down so she could heal his wounds. Naruto fought her for the first time in his life, and as an idealist she needed him to live.
“I am the one to die! Not you!”
He stopped then, just staring at her – then she healed his wounds.

2007-01-13T09:53:00.000+08:00

In a life of uncertain events, get what you can, live with it, cherish the sweetness within and never let it go. All the while remembering your ideal and the unachieved fantasy that slipped from your grasps. And turn the disappointment into a driving force that allows you to surpass the lost goal and touch the rims beyond your current reality.

Lost & Found
- self

I found an angel in the snow
Yet lost that angel to the snow
I bade her farewell and fortune
Turned around and found another
That took my breath away

This angel sang of dicipline
This angel danced the swordlight
This angel walked the rough-tiled
And took my breath away

A change of heart
A change of face
Which took my breath away

A dozen months flying by
It took my breath away

She took my breath away

A score of memories
It took my breath away

Left in the shelter
Thrown to the world
Which took my breath away

Losing hope was never so
Losing drive touched all too near
Losing sight makes it more dear
And took my breath away

For when you lose an angel
Whom you found and lost to snow
To behold a vindicated beauty
Who hints of Past made New
She takes your breath away

May the days be passed, Knowing that one knows what the other knows.

What makes a good challenge? Something that makes u work for it
What makes a great challenge? Something just slightly out of your current reach.

Great challenge

2007-01-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

I found a beta-reader for my Fan Fiction! *does the hampster dance*

Right...this week has been slightly weird. First off i'm having a seemingly inexhaustable reserve of energy cos i hardly sleep in school, i can do self training to the point of being dead at the end of the workout, and yet that night i sleep at 2am. And wake at 5am. For 4 nights it happens and i don't feel the slightest bit of exhaustion. Sounds like a good deal but...it's not me! I don't fidgit in my seat, I don't walk/run for the sake of walking/running. And i most certainly don't accidentally hop when I'm walking alone.

Brain rewiring just occurred. Hrmp. Must be the aftereffects of the adrenaline rush of orientation.

Anyway, I went to the HCJC campfire this evening. Each OG prepared their own skit, each 'house' their own drama, and the OGLs of each 'house' had a customised dance that was simply brimming with energy and hype, just the kind I see when i go clubbing. It makes the AJC mass dance feel and LOOK so elementary, the dissappointment is excruciating. Met a couple of lower secondary classmates, exchanged details and of course commented on the height of each other. The first comment I got from Clement was, "Oh my god, you're taller than me you bastard!!" HAH! That's what u get you short punk. Anyway Nicole(it's a guy's name btw) has a twin brother in ajc. He's in squash and I've been charged with the duty of being a private investigator to dig out who his girlfriend is and leaking the information over to Nicole. Gossipmonger in me is curious as well. His twin brother isn't 1/2 as good looking or smart as him. Must be feeling an inferiority complex after 17 years. Who wouldn't?

Thereafter, 6 of us walked to Coronation for dinner at Prince. It's a western restaurant that's quite popular among bukit timah area schools. But i digress. Back to the orientation. Picked up a couple of ideas from looking around. Might try them out in ajc. If the admin actually allows it. Its raining. Nature's Blessings.

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Speaking of the rain, some random malaysian scholar who got caught for having long hair told the teacher that the recent monsoon rains flooded the reservoirs in JB. And it caused crocodiles to escape. So he couldn't get to the barber's.

Lets imagine you're watching the flooded streets from your second floor window and you see a crocodile surface and eat your shoerack. Ouch. What an idiot.

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Oh. And HCJC is having their Cross Country in Valentine's day. Its a race of the Lovers!!! =_^

heee!

till next time...meanwhile enjoy my gallery posts. Those ain't fillers. They're Art.

2007-01-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

CCA carnival today. Noisy, messy and a total mess. But we got 30+ JC1s to sign up. So maybe 20 will turn up on friday. and 10 will stay till the end of 1st 3 mths. OK. Here come my filler entries. But they have quality k! This is called Art. Digital Art. Some samples i got

2007-01-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

due to overwhelming

BAD

response, i will start picking people tpo read my fan fic!!! RWAHHAAH

2007-01-07T18:59:00.000+08:00

Orientation was...fun. Yay!!!

Eh I just started to write my own Fan Fiction so before i actually POST it, i need some beta readers. Tell me on msn if you're interested. Or I might just randomly pick a few people and enslave them.

School starts. 358 till 2008!

2006-12-18T01:24:00.000+08:00

I GOT A new BLOG SONG!!!

Suteki Da Ne.

beautiful violin accompaniment.
T_T *tears in eyes*

and...I'm single again. Won't elaborate.

2006-12-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

At the fervent request of a certain 4P member who cannot join us for our regular hanging outs 'cos his bloody holiday is different from ours....

I like to blog about things in one go...so all the way from last MONDAY.

4/12/2006
Sleeping at home when Jacqueline dug me up. Or more like drag my whole body off the bed. But that's besides the point. We went to Katong for breakfast, bumped into her friend, debated where to go for a long long while and somehow found ourselves caught in national library at 4pm 'cos the sky decided to empty its bladders. In the end we had dinner at Bugis and then i sent her home...then the lonely journey home...end of day.

5/12/2006
Wushu chalet. Met at 2pm...or some other time. ANYWAY, after meeting we went for lunch, only to have latecomer waisoon call us. Us being evil and him being an outcast, we told him we weren't there and to wait at the MRT station. Then we spent a full hour eating and lazing around at the shopping centre next to Pasir Ris MRT. I think it was called White Sands. Bought a book: Artemis Fowl Book 5-->The Lost Colony. Travelled to Changi Chalet. Coach was evil and took me on my first motorbike ride to buy charcoal and ice for the BBQ. He didnt stop when crossing a roadbump. Guess what happened to me. *does a 10cm levitation stunt unintentionally*

That night was simply boring. Dinner BBQ i had 2 otahs and 1 sotong ball. Zhihao and Cindy came at midnight i think. We went to Cheers, bought MORE charcoal, went back and started another private BBQ. A few kids tried to start the fire, so we played volleyball. The same few kids failed to start the fire, so one of them had the luck to use his charcoal smeared hands to grip my pants and tell me to go start it. I hope his bruise has faded....

6/12/2006
Morning had nothing that i remember. Afternoon was spent playing soccer and captains ball. Rubbed my feet raw on the rocky ground. Dinner was at Changi Village. Carrot Cake for dinner. Followed by a nice, LONGGGGGGG stroll along Changi Beach. Whatever spooky/romantic/pleasant experience there was supposed to be was effectively covered up by the 30 odd people walking together. Noisy/ sticky/ and with a coach that bellows like a trumpet in my ear to scare somebody else. (i got a fright instead, but hush hush about that ok?)

Ok. Crazy idea by coach(yes again!) to visit Old Changi Hospital. We went up the front driveway. 1/2 way through we turned back 'cos he said something about it being haunted. All i felt was my vision swimming and sparks in my eyes, followed by going into a trance and spurting supernatural omens. Then I disappeared before everybody's eyes and massacred them all. yea right....

I felt nothing. Except a super clammy left palm 'cos this guy who decided to link my hand(i dunno for WHAT) had sweaty palms.

Thereafter we walked back to the chalet. Me, Si Xu, Bang Jie climbed this funny flight of stairs near the chalet but turned back when the route got overgrown and swarmed with biting red ants. We tried again at the carpark right behind the chalet. There's this stairway leading to one of the buildings housing in-patients. Entered Old Changi Hospital through what seems to be the old ambulance unloading point. First floor, nothing. Didn't carry a torch, so had to peer over Si Xu's shoulder to catch a glimpse in that darkness.

Second floor, accidentally turned my head to look back. Supposedly that would extinguish my shoulder flames and bring the ghosts all around to haunt me. Still nothing. Although i did go "oh fucking hell..." Bangjie was trying to find me cos i kept running of to explore by myself. Our entourage had some 16 people. Coach was right in front. But at the THIRD FLOOR....

There's this chemical lab at the third floor. The shelving is still there. It's also completely speckless. For an abandoned building it sure is...clean. But maybe the reason its physically clean is because it's...spiritally unclean. It's rumoured to be anyway. But the total lack of dust is truly disconcerting.

After the walk had to go home cos had OGL training the next day. Chalet was getting boring anyway.

7/12/2006
Games and briefing during OGL training. Three words: Not worth blogging.
Went back chalet. J2s were here. A miserable few anyway. 5-6 guys, 3 girls. BBQ again. This time i got to start the fire, piss off the firestarting wannabees, barbeque tons of fish, of which 2 were eaten, the rest thrown away, and two rescued by me for breakfast/early morning snack.

No Gim Ba Lor for me tho...some cheap kinda fish instead. The Gim Ba Lor got eaten by everybody cos it's way way way nicer than the cheap fish.

Coach got drunk. Tried to feed his buddies what i think is almost 50% martel. Got drunk, made a fool of himself, had buddies that almost puked, tried playing a game with us, gave up, lay down, had buddy flick his thingy, disgusted the girls i think.

Then i rescued the fish, grabbed some drinks, and enjoyed myself in the chalet room since nobody was inside except for two sleeping logs.

8/12/2006
Supposed to be OGL training again. I slept in. Woke at 9am. Pack up, go home. Shower...checked the flooded mailbox of mine...dinner...sleep.

9/12/2006
OG training again. Painted the banner. Irvin jio LAN. Yongjie, Noel, Me, Puikit, Irvin played at Paradiz. Waited for Eric at Mac's, then immigrated to Underground and played again.

10/12/2006
Nice day spent around the family. The one with the bass voice scolding, the one with the squeaky alto nagging. Oh my...

11/12/2006
Went to school. paint banner. Dunno what i did after that, but i think it's meeting eric again and going to raiders for LAN...again!! Then he went for soccer chalet and i dragged my sorry ass home.

12/12/2006
Tuition at Bukit Timah from 11am till 1pm. Yijie suddenly called me to go out with him. So........went to his house, lazed a bit, met eric who was coming back from his soccer chalet. Here is his personal account of what they did:

At night right, we cycle. Cycle from downtown east to changi village. Makan dinner. Then right, we cycle along changi beach. And then right, we cycle cycle cycle all the way back to downtown east to pick up TWO people leh!! After that hor, we cycle back to changi village for supper!! Then we went to Old Changi Hospital. Climb this ulu ulu fence into the building. "Daryl: erpz...the place ulu enuf. How to find ulu ulu fence" "Eric: just listan lah"
We go inside....FUCKING SCARY SIA!!! Then after that hor, we cycle all the way to changi airport, then back to downtown east! omg my legs are breaking...
"Daryl: but u still can walk what....plus ur bloody soccer legs like horse liddat 1."

Anybody sense anything? I think there are 3 possibilities:
1) He's bullshitting as usual
2) JJC soccer people are dumb to cycle repeated trips and go all the way from pasir ris to changi to airport for fun when the chalet itself has tons of facilities
3) Eric was possessed in OCH and the ghost is an excellent storyteller

Back to the day itself...
Met with him at City hall. Went to Dhoby Ghaut. At this point Yijie started getting high. He wanted to shop for rings for his first month anniversay with his new girl. Met his friend. Met Ryan with his girlfriend. His sideburns are no longer sticking out! In fact...he looks like a guai boyboy. Thereafter Yijie went bonkers and travelled ALL THE DAY WAY TO WOODLANDS to fetch wenjie, who was coming down to dhoby ghaut anyway. In other words, a wasted trip. Being left with eric, we played LAN...AGAIN.

When wenjie and yijie came back, puikit sent me a message that he saw us. But he's supposed to be working as a reporter for Lian He Zhao Bao so what he's doing at PS is beyond me. Now here's the dumb part.

Instead of watching at PS, we travelled to Tampines Mall to watch Flags Of Our Fathers. On the MRT Yijie gayed with everybody and got kicked in the ass by all of us. Tried to kiss eric. Me and wenjie pushed them together...WHAEEAHH!!! Had dinner at Billy Bombers. Got stuffed with zillions of fries. nearly exploded. Eric ordered Almond Chicken. When it came, he said, "Hey there are ALMONDS on the chicken!!" And when he bit into it, " The chicken got ALMOND taste!!" Oh my....Stupidity redefined. Yijie went oh a mega high and made a fool of himself. Me and wenjie were sending daggers at him but i don't think he noticed so nevermind...
At the end of dinner, there were four very full, very sleepy, and very broke people. We didnt have enough notes. we dug for coins. We didnt have enough coins. In the end we were 25cents short. Wenjie took out an old $2 note. Somehow we paid the $108.25 bill. Money burning spree 2!!! The staff and other customers thought the 4 of us were mad....laughing and banging and digging money like beggars.

Flags of our fathers was nice. Wrong timing though. Never watch the movie when you're full. sleepy sleepy sleeeppyyy....

After watching we went to downtown east on the last train. Got eric's bag, then stayed over at my house. Me and wenjie fell asleep quite soon. eric and yijie went to watch "death note" on my tv. At 4am in the morning...

BAM!!! OI GOT COCKROACH!!! AHH!!! KILL IT!!!
Two drowsy people wake up...to see yijie weilding a magazine and trying to clobber the parque floor.
Screw you lah....cockroach then cockroach lorh...won't bite off your head 1 lah. KNNB CCB wake us up 'cos of a cockroach.
U NOT SCARED COCKROACH MEH?!?!? DARYL!! ITS UNDER THE BED! U DUN CARE MEH?
fuck u and let me sleep...."flops down"

Yijie stayed up the whole night....

13/12/2006
Woke to find yijie gone. Morning and afternoon spent playing on the comp. Eric left for home. Me and wenjie went to parkway. Sakae Sushi Tepanyaki again. Met Luo Jun. Ate second dinner at food court. I went to cut hair. blew a wad of cash. MONEY BURNING SPREE THREE!!! Wenjie went home. Luo Jun stayed over. Nothing interesting happened except that he wanted to read my past month Maxim & FHM magazines...ended up using cynthia koh's coverpage as a mousepad for the laptop. I went to sleep...

14/12/2006
Woke at 10am and lazed till 1pm. Went to meet wenjie for an early dinner at a foodcourt and then watched Happy Feet at cineleisure. Nice show!!! Should've watched it right after we watched Saw III. Being broke, i went home and here i am blogging and enjoying the sea breeze in my room....as well as the big construction lights in marina bay. Damn mega condos and integrated resorts....

4P'05..................HELL YEA YOU GUYS PAWN!!!!!!!!!!!
The Creme-de-la-creme of slackers who can scrap through exams without lifting a finger for a full year...

^_^

And here's my post. Be sure to stay tune for countless filler entries before the next big chunk. Just like naruto episodes

2006-12-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

Junior asks his dad, "Daddy, how was I born?

"His dad sighs and replies, "Ah, my son,I guess one day you would have to find out anyway!Well, you see, your Mum and I first got together in a chat room on MSN.Then I set up a date via e-mail with your mom and we met at a cyber-cafe.We snuck into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive.As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us hadused a firewall, but it was too late to hit the delete button. Six weeks later your mom sent me aninstant message saying that her operating system was showing signs of unauthorized program activity from a self extracting file which had implanted itself in her BIOS.Then nine months later a little Pop-Up appeared and said:

'You've Got Male'!"

I would wait forever

2006-12-04T00:16:00.000+08:00

I Would Wait Forever

On summers’ day young and fair
You screamed defiance and slashed your hair
And pasts lay revealed for all to see
But none would turn and notice me
And i would wait forever... (yamanaka)

A flash and a smile is all my worth
No feelings shared, any truths unearthed
And quiet moments passed to soon
Filled with chatter to erase the gloom
And i would wait forever... (haruno)

He left us both at summers end
Friend are foes I shall not bend
And wounds made with tender care
A friendship revealed he could not bear
And i would wait forever... (uzumaki)

Time is a passage to heal the pain
And lovers' tears are a tender rain
Your strength revealed what would not show
And you say his name and your face will glow
And I would wait forever... (ukumaki)

You came to me on wedding's day
Congratulations was all I could say
And in my cheer there will be no lack
And this smile will never slack
And I would wait forever... (hyuuga)

Yes a smile that lasts forever
And I actually think I’m being clever
I’ll wait for you till end of days
And I’ll show my love for you in little ways
And I would wait forever… (haruno)

But even endless smiles can be worn down
And now I wear a constant frown
My body has become my cage
And inside its fire can no longer rage (uzumaki)

I can not heal i shall not care
this burden was to much to bear
And from my veins my blood did slip
My fingers numb they could not grip (haruno)

I guess Forever is a word of fools
Nothing lasts in the life of tools
I could not even say what was wrong
I guess forever was a day too long
And I won't wait forever... (all)

when you are bored and see the world is a dark and dreary night
and marina bay blares FUCKING lights that shine right through the window
you sit up straight and write poems of a noobie quality....TCHTCHTCH

ok.....what u all this of this poem? ^_^ I've got an addiction.

U can tell towards what. Some of you anyway. Oh...and i POSTED OK!!! I DECIDED TO REVIVE THE BLOG FOR ONE DAY! ----------read and review. thx!!!

2006-12-01T10:27:00.000+08:00

bored in school....waiting for yogi come...pass him stuff and den go back bloody library.
go home or cut hair depending whether eric reply sms...tch boring day.

went to watch saw 3 yesterday. theatre volume sound effects. goreeee...breaking bones tearing skin ripping muscles bursting guts. chio? yay!

this blog is useless...

2006-11-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

Honey dance I BELIEVE

utter coolness!!! rahaha

2006-11-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

What happens when u have an addiction and have nothing to post on your blog....
ENJOY MY FILLER ENTRIES!!! AT LEAST THEY AIN'T SONG LYRICS.

2006-11-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

If persistance was a sin my parents would be the epitome of demonic attributes.

Just
Give
Up
On
Me
And
Go
Die

gosh...how many times must be patience be tested before i lash out more than verbally at them.
numbskulls....
Lets see. I play games before the exams. You're pissed.
I read before the exams. You're pissed.
I play 1 day after the exams. You're pissed like hell.
I stop playing and start reading books & reading fan fictions...you think I'm doing research but when u find out u confiscate my laptop charger and the computer terminal?

And then i go out. I return at 2.30am to see the damn lights on and a bitch & a stud waiting for me to explain myself? WTH!!!!!

Get a life. Go work or screw or whatever it is you do. get outta my life. Period. must u insist on fetching all the time? or eating dinner together? A human is an individual. A human DOES NOT NEED people clinging on to bonds they want to shatter.

Oh and ignore this post. I still needed some avenue to vent after 8 uptight days with a couple who've got sticks up their ass. Even throwing the damn chair and breaking it didnt work....

Maybe standing in the rain will help. The only problem is that humans screwed the environment up so much it the monsoons no longer hit at this time. It'll be a better place without humans. At least then the mechanisms of life will be in sync. And less contradictory.

Find me a grassy plain away from humanity and let me lie watching the clouds till its all over for me. and everybody.

2006-10-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

Anybody's still having regular lectures nowadays? other than ajc...i'd like to find a fellow-desperado. why're we still having lessons...like prepare for OP so damn many times? I never knew that the supposed "top-5 contender" for JCs has THAT students that can't hold their own against a panel of...two teachers?

Less of this complaining...hmm? Off to MoS later tonight for their halloween party. No picture to show yet...but I'll be dressed is the likes of something that vaguely reminds me of facial fangs. The kind that goes beyond your eyes down the lengths of your nose. The idea isn't mine though, courtesy of three extremely evil girls who decided to be personal stylists for me and ron, just for one night. AS for how it looks...imagine....you know the gayass eyeshadow? NOT WEIXUE KIND!!! THE EVILISH GROSS KIND. NOT GAYISH GROSS. hur....weixue's some ajc guy. Go youtube and search him for a taste of his...artistic "talent". Remember to be near a dustbin. It's potentially nauseous.
And yes the party's for above 18(in other words...i'm breaking da law!)

for now...that's it. there're little kids dressed as harry potters knocking on my door going treat or trick. Guess this happens in an estate overwhelmingly populated by caucasians and north indians. And I'm not complaining...some of em look good.

The gates of hell...ne?

I hope the damn fillers for the Naruto anime ends. it's almost hitting 100 episodes.

2006-10-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

ah......as hellish as the timing was for everything to be as resolved as it possibly can over a telephone...

i'm glad it's over...somewhat?

that which has never been broken cannot be fixed.
so long as the heart is still whole in spite of the crack...it's alright if it's imperfect. No?

it's as normal as can be. and i couldn't be happier

2006-10-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

I can only give you everything I have...every part of me...

And I hope...that it's enough for you.
Forgive me.

The Mourning After

2006-10-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

Naruto Fanfic. After Sakura's death. Those that never follow wouldn't understand much. Beautiful.

The Mourning After

Her eyes were open. That was good. She had to be alive.
"Sakura-chan?" She didn't respond. He knelt down above her head, which was resting on Sasuke's knee. "Sakura-chan?" He tried again, as if she might not have heard him the first time.
Still nothing.
"Sasuke…she's okay, right?" He looked up at Sasuke's face. "Right, Sasuke?"
The Uchiha bowed his head slightly, before slowly shaking it to the left and right.
Naruto felt the air rush out of his lungs, and he dropped onto his heels. He could only stare dumbly as her upside down eyes stared back up at him.
Sasuke moved his left hand, which had been cradling her neck, and brought it up to rest on her forehead. Naruto noticed that it was shaking. And that it was covered in blood. It was covered in her blood. Sasuke moved his palm down her face, stopping once he'd reached the bridge of her nose.
He'd closed her eyes. It was over.
6:58 am
Naruto sat cross-legged on his bed, elbows leaning heavily on his knees.
The wind outside pushed against his window, trying to force itself in through the small opening near the sill. He should probably open that more; the room was getting warmer, and even though he'd removed his shirt, small beads of sweat were forming on his skin.
But he didn't move. He couldn't. It hurt too much.
6:59 am
It wasn't his physical wounds that had kept him confined to his small apartment for the past two days. No, he could deal with cuts, scrapes, bruises and broken bones better than most, thanks in no small part to the Nine-Tailed Demon Fox that he housed in his body. Whenever he got injured, the chakra from the Kyubi could usually mend most of the damage. More importantly, it had saved him from death on more than one occasion.
Death…
7:00 am
He brought his palm down to silence his alarm clock as the fifty-nine changed to double zeros. Another night without sleep…his third in a row. How long would this go on for? When would he be able to get a good night's rest again? When would his dreams stop being filled with blood and broken bones? When would he be able to close his eyes without seeing hers staring up at him vacantly, filled with death.
Sakura-chan…
"Shit," he muttered, jabbing the heels of his palms into his eye sockets. He had to get out of bed. He had to get ready. She'd knock him on the head if he showed up at her memorial service unshowered and unkempt.
Well, no, that wasn't true. She wouldn't pound his scalp until his knots had knots. She wouldn't scream at him for being crude in her presence. She wouldn't punch him for trying to be affectionate with her. She wouldn't call him an idiot for trying to goad Sasuke.
She wouldn't, because she was dead.
He bowed his head forward, and pushed his hands into his stomach to try and quell the nausea. He forced the bile to stay down by sucking in breaths of air through his teeth. One. Two. Three. His stomach slowly settled, and he pushed his head back up. He could do this. He could do this. He just needed to take it one step at a time. First he needed to put his feet on the floor. Left, then right. Good. Now he just needed to stand up. He pushed off the bed and put his weight on his newly planted feet. His knees shook slightly, but didn't give way under him. That was a good sign. Now he just needed to get to the bathroom. Then he could shower, brush his teeth, comb his hair, put on his clothes, go outside, walk to the memorial, stand through the speeches, the flowers, the tears of Sakura's mother, and finally bury his teammate forever.
His knees buckled, and the ground rushed at him fast. Bracing the impact with his forearms, he leaned his head against the cool wood floor. "Shit," he cursed at himself, a little louder. He couldn't do this.
It was warm and sunny. It shouldn't have been warm and sunny. It should have been cold and dark and rainy and miserable. Like he felt.
Naruto clenched his fist to keep from tugging at the collar of his black shirt. He was uncomfortable and sweaty. "God damn." Were they going to start soon? He looked around at the other mourners. They'd filled in to form a grid, as was typical at funerals of shinobi. He'd made sure to stand in the front row, close to the center. Most of their former classmates were there, scattered around them. Ino was standing behind him, flanked by her teammates. She would sniffle raggedly and then choke back the sounds with a hiccup. Shikamaru and Choji alternated between looking helplessly at her, and then back to the ground. Obviously, they'd never seen her cry.
Naruto, too, was surprised to see the blond so emotional. He'd heard that Ino and Sakura had once been good friends, but for the past few years at least, he'd only seen them bicker over that jerk Sasuke.
He turned his head to his right, where his own teammate stood. Sasuke was in his black tunic, and his dark hair fell around his forehead protector the way it always had. His mouth was set in a thin line, and his eyes were forward. Naruto couldn't read him, which wasn't uncommon. The Uchiha was always trying to act like a tough guy. Bastard.
"Stop fidgeting."
Naruto was surprised when Sasuke spoke--he hadn't even seen him open his mouth.
"I'm not fidgeting."
Sasuke didn't look at him, but mumbled something under his breath that sounded distinctly like "Baka."
Naruto's nostrils flared slightly, but he kept his voice low. "Arrogant jerk."
Sasuke didn't respond for a while, and Naruto thought that would be the end of the conversation. He was wrong. "Why do you have that?"
"What?"
"In your pocket."
Instinctively, Naruto reached his hand into his pocket and clasped his fingers around the cool metal band. He pulled it out and opened his fist, staring at the dented leaf spiral and torn bindings. He'd found it ten feet away from her body. It must have fallen from her head after the explosion. It was soaked in her blood.
He'd spent the night last night scrubbing and polishing it, trying to get the crusted red stains off. He'd gotten the metal plate to shine again, but the dents and nicks were permanent. So were the rips and discoloration in the blue fabric.
His hand closed tightly around the forehead protector again. "I found it…that day. I couldn't leave it."
"You cleaned it."
"She always kept it so neat. It didn't feel right to see it so…" he swallowed, changing the direction of his thought. "I thought maybe her parents would want it."
Sasuke puffed out a breath. "Idiot."
Naruto drew his eyebrows together and glowered. "What's your problem?"
"They won't want it."
"How do you know? It's the symbol of Konoha, and Sakura-chan died fighting--"
"It's meaningless. It won't make their pain easier. It will only remind them of what they lost."
Naruto clenched his jaw. "You're wrong. And I think--I know they should have it."
For the first time during their conversation, Sasuke looked at the blond boy. "Then you're stupider than I though."
Naruto's eyes widened, and his muscles began to shake. All the sadness and grief he'd been feeling transformed into anger, which he promptly directed at Sasuke. "You cold, arrogant, son of a--"
"Hey, you two, calm down. You're going to make a scene." Naruto heard Shikamaru whisper "What troublesome guys," under his breath after interrupting the small feud between him and Sasuke.
Sasuke glanced back at Shikamaru, and then faced forward again with the same stoic face.
Naruto trained his eyes on his teammate for a moment longer before looking away too. Sakura-chan wouldn't have wanted them to be fighting. He needed to calm himself down. No, he needed to stop letting Sasuke provoke him like this. Just because the guy was unable to show any kind of compassion (or emotions, it sometimes seemed), didn't mean he had the right to get worked up about it. But, man, did it piss him off. Even Kakashi-sensei, a Jounin trained to master his emotions, was more sensitive than Sasuke…
Where was his perverted teacher anyway? Another quick sweep confirmed that the Copy Ninja hadn't arrived yet. It wasn't surprising, just a little disappointing. He'd hoped his teacher would make an exception of his bad habit at least this once. What could he be doing that was more important than this?
Well, that didn't matter now. The old hag had taken her place in front of a small picture of Sakura, ready to begin the service.
Everyone else seemed to have noticed this too, as most of the crowd simultaneously stood straighter. It would have been amusing, if it wasn't so depressing.
"I don't have a speech written," Tsunade began, and Naruto rolled his eyes. Lazy ass. "It's not because I didn't want to, or didn't have time. I sat for hours last night, thinking about what I should say. Trying to find words of wisdom, or inspiration, or comfort. But the truth is, nothing I wrote seemed fitting. Words couldn't capture Sakura's spirit, or beauty, or kindness. And they certainly couldn't capture her greatest strength: her love. If anything, Sakura's life was defined by her steadfast loyalty and devotion to those she cared about…"
Naruto noticed the vehement nodding of the black bobbed haircut standing a few rows down from himself and Sasuke. Sakura had developed a soft spot for Fuzzy Brows after the survival test of their first Chuunin exam, something that had surprised the hell out of him. In any case, Lee was probably taking her death as hard as he and Sasuke were. Well, as hard as he was, at least.
He looked again at Sasuke through the corner of his eyes, trying to see if the Fifth's words had had any affect on him. The other boy's expression hadn't changed. Unemotional bastard.
He tried to catch back on to Tsunade's speech. "…because it's never easy to lose someone that young. Sakura's medical proficiency was developing at an extremely rapid rate. She had so much potential to become one of the best medical nin…"
Naruto felt a small draft brush against his ear. He turned against it, drowning out the eulogy again, and was startled to see his teacher standing next to him, as if he'd been there the entire time. At least he wasn't too late. "Let me guess. You got lost?" He whispered.
"No, unfortunately. Today, I was very much aware of my surroundings."
He hated when Kakashi-sensei spoke so ambiguously, but dropped it. What did it really matter anyway.
"…Earlier this morning, her name was carved into the memorial." Tsunade paused, and Naruto followed her gaze to where Kakashi stood. Oh, so that was it…
"She has joined the ranks of the shinobi who gave their lives to protect Konoha and its assets. Haruno Sakura," Tsunade said, lifting the white flower in her hand, "We shall honor and remember you always." She placed the Carnation on the small alter in front of Sakura's picture, then stepped aside, indicating that others could now do the same. Out of respect, no one moved until Sakura's parents had placed their flowers on their daughter's grave. Appropriately enough, it was a sprig of Cherry Blossoms.
…...
Naruto pulled himself up to his full height, trying to gather the courage he needed to approach her mother and father. Few were still present; the service had ended almost forty minutes ago, and the heat had become unbearable. But he was still here, because he had to do this one last hard thing.
"Okay, go," he ordered himself as he began walking towards them. They were talking to Ino and her family, but that conversation seemed to be wrapping up. He came up behind them, and cleared this throat. "Mr. Haruno, Mrs. Haruno," he said, bowing slightly.
"Naruto," they both acknowledged, excusing themselves from the conversation with the Yamanaka's.
"I…I wanted to say I'm sorry. And…" he glanced to his right nervously, and saw Sasuke staring at him with what appeared to be a very deep frown. That steeled his resolve. "And I wanted to give you this." He held out his palms, across which Sakura's forehead protector was spread. "I--It was Sakura-chan's."
Mr. Haruno closed his eyes, squeezing them tightly, while his wife's green eyes began to water in a very familiar manner. Naruto's stomach sank a little as he realized that Sasuke might have been right. He'd done something inappropriate. But then, he felt the weight of the band lift from his hand, and a palm clamped down gently on his shoulder. He looked up to see Mrs. Haruno holding the protector to her chest, eye's glassy, but not angry. Mr. Haruno gripped Naruto's shoulder a little more firmly. "Thank you, Naruto-kun. This means…this means a lot."
He opened his mouth in surprise, but then closed it and offered them a small smile and nod before backing away. He'd done what he needed to do. Now they needed to be alone. He searched for Sasuke again, wanting (not so) slightly to rub in the fact that he'd been wrong. But the Uchiha genius had disappeared.
"Go left. I'll go right. We'll cover more ground." Sasuke ordered.
"Who made you boss?" Naruto hissed back from their refuge in the woods.
"We don't have time for this. The longer we stay here, the easier it'll be for him to track us. We're not Genins anymore. He's not going to make this simp--"
"I know that. God." Naruto glared at Sasuke, clenching his fist. He hated when Sasuke condescended to him. "I just don't think we should split up. Our attack could be stronger together--"
"We don't have time for this," Sasuke iterated again, before disappearing to the right.
"Hey!" Naruto almost began complaining, but shut his mouth. No one was listening. Grudgingly, he headed to the left, keeping himself hidden in the foliage. If he'd learned anything from Kakashi-sensei, it was that stealth was important. He frowned as he remembered the rather unorthodox jutsu that his teacher had attacked him with at their first training session.
Their training today was a variation of the bell test. This time, their sensei wasn't waiting for an attack in the open. He'd concealed himself, and was tracking them as well. Their objective, a string of bells, was tied to the branch of one of the trees in the area. They had to locate and secure the bells, without getting caught. And with a Jounin on their tail, Naruto was positive that splitting up was a stupid idea. "I wish you were here, Sakura-chan," he whispered to himself as he jumped from branch to branch. "Maybe you could have talked some sense into that arrogant jerk." He wasn't sure that she would have been able to, but he wished her presence none the less. It had been two weeks, but training sessions just didn't seem right without her there with them.
He shook his head, trying to dispel her from his thoughts. He had to focus, not wish for the impossible. He quickened his pace from branch to branch, being careful not to upset the foliage too much. Both Kakashi-sensei and Ero-Sennin had impressed upon him the importance of subtlety in his approach. Well, they couldn't say he wasn't trying.
He stopped his trek abruptly, ear twitching. Remaining completely still, he listened again. As the slight wind brushed across him, he heard the faint jingling. His mouth titled upwards, and he jumped towards the direction of the noise. Approaching a grassy clearing just beyond forest, his eye caught two small glints hanging off the lower branch of the far most tree.
He stopped abruptly again. He'd located the bells. Now he had to worry about the 'don't get caught' part. If Sasuke had been here, the task would have been much easier. "Go left my ass," he muttered as he surveyed for signs of his teacher. He didn't see anything, so he pushed forward slowly. "I know you're somewhere around here, Kakashi-sensei, and I'm going to beat you." He placed his middle and index fingers in the shape of a cross. "Kage Bunshin no Jutsu!" Four copies of himself appeared on the tree branch. "Get those bells," he instructed. The five of them leaped down.
And immediately, flying kunai stabbed two of them, eliminating the shadow clones in puffs of smoke. The remaining three Narutos immediately took cover within the trees. "Shit." He hadn't been able to pin point the source of the attack. Not that it mattered; the Jounin had probably changed position already. He needed a sacrificial lamb, so to speak, and nodded to one of the replicas. It nodded back, and carefully made its way to the bells, still hanging untouched. It had barely made it within ten feet of the target, before it, too, was eliminated by flying shuriken.
That was all Naruto needed. He leaped up, kunai in hand, flinging himself in the direction the ninja stars had originated. Screw subtlety. He could stall Kakashi-sensei now that he knew his position, and his last clone could get the bells. Game over. Sasuke could go right till that stick got dislodged from his ass. Bastard.
Within seconds, he'd lifted himself to the appropriate level, and saw the rustling of the dense leaf covering. "Kakashi-sensei," he yelled, raising the dagger in his hand, "I've got you this time!" He crashed through the leaves, but instead of finding his Jounin instructor, he found a startled squirrel. "Eh?" His surprise didn't last long, as a blur slammed fast into his face. He fell backward, and was barely able to flip gracefully and land feet first on the ground. He saw his last clone disappear as it attempted to grab the bells. "Crap."
"Naruto," a voice admonished from above. "Never directly engage the enemy before you've conducted proper reconnaissance."
Naruto shielded his eyes from the sunlight streaming through the top covering as he looked up. He still couldn't see his teacher.
"Now you've lost all four clones, and have made your position known to me."
"It's not over yet."
He got no verbal response, but heard the whirring of daggers cutting through air. "Shit!" He swore, positioning his own weapon to deflect the incoming ones. Before he got the chance, two kunai flew passed him from his left, knocking Kakashi's away from his face. He reluctantly turned his head, knowing full well where this defense had come from.
Sure enough, Sasuke was there, staring at him with an expression that screamed "idiot."
Sasuke was gone from his position in a blur, and Naruto felt something grab hold of his waist and push him deeper into the forest. "Ay, Sasuke. Let go!"
The other boy stopped his fast run, but their momentum sent Naruto crashing ungracefully to the ground. "Damn it!"
Sasuke stood there, scowling at him. "Idiot. What did you think you were doing?"
"Me? I was trying to get the bells. With no help from you, I might add."
"Shh." Sasuke looked up, listening. His red eyes narrowed. "He's found us. Split up. You go straight for the bells, and I'll come around and cover you."
"Split up, split up, split up. No. We should stick together this time. We know where the bells are. We stand a better chance against Kakashi-sensei if we're both there."
But Sasuke wasn't listening. "We have to move. Now. Go straight. Keep your guard up. I'll wind through and cover you. Just go for those bells, and I'll take care of the rest."
"But--" He was gone before Naruto could argue. "Damn it, Sasuke!" He was the Uchiha's teammate, not his subordinate. There was no option now. He had to follow the plan (or as much of it as he was told about) that was being forced down his throat. Checking his surroundings, he was glad that Sasuke hadn't propelled them too far from where the bells were. He picked himself up, gathering enough chakra in his feet to repel upward. He'd tried approaching level with the bells before. This time, he'd come from above.
He reached the clearing again, this time with an aerial view of the bells. He did a quick sweep for his masked teacher. Kakashi was definitely around here somewhere, but had hidden himself well. Naruto searched for Sasuke, too, but couldn't make out his position either. "Alright, Sasuke, you'd better be here." He jumped off the branch he was on, heading straight for his target below.
This time, he was being more careful. From the corner of his eye, he detected the blur of motion coming at him. His mouth twitched into a smile, and his arms formed the cross again. "Kage Bunshin no Jutsu!" His four shadow clones appeared by his side, and simultaneously turned towards the motion, legs outstretched to deliver a roundhouse kick.
Kakashi easily deflected the blows, grabbing the orange pant leg of the last Naruto to attack him and twisting it. The clone exploded into smoke, but provided enough of a distraction for the remaining four orange clad boys to safely reach the ground.
Kakashi landed too, and all four Narutos groaned when they saw his unmasked Sharingan. "Sensei-i-i," they whined in unison. "That's not fair."
"Enemy nin will not bother with fairness, Naruto," he was informed before at least a dozen shuriken flew at him and the replications.
Naruto and one clone leaped, while the two others ducked and rolled. A shuriken stabbed the chest of one on the ground, and it disappeared easily.
"Your defense is sloppy. A Chuunin should be able to provide me with much more of a distraction."
Naruto scowled, and flipped in the air. Maybe if he'd had reliable back up, instead of that moody, brooding…
He landed a safe distance from his teacher, catching his breath. "You want a distraction? Fine." He outstretched his palm, tensing it slightly. Turning to the shadow clones, he said, "Get those bells. I'll hold him off." The clones stood, making their way towards the tree. Kakashi let them go, staring lazily at Naruto. He hated when his teacher got so cocky. At least he hadn't pulled out his book.
Focusing his chakra into his hand, he felt the air around his palm swirl. "Rasengan!" He wouldn't make it too potent; he didn't want to hurt the Jounin, after all. He just wanted to wipe that bored expression off his face.
He charged forward, crying out as he ran. As the energy in his hand grew, he focused his sight on Kakashi's form. Just a few more meters and--
--his eyes widened in surprise. The lazy figure had disappeared from his line of sight. "What…?" He felt a strong grip on his forearm, before his momentum was used to pivot him about. Before he knew it, he was flying through the air, in the opposite direction he'd been running in. The backs of his remaining replications came into view, growing larger as he sailed towards them. "Get out of the way!" He ordered, unable to control the power in his palm. They weren't able to move quickly enough, and his jutsu was executed against himself. Two puffs of smoke later, Naruto found himself sliding along the dirt before he flipped feet first into the base of a tree.
He groaned, opening one eye, then the other. His teacher's upside down body came into view, hands shoved into his pockets. His lazy expression was gone, replaced with one of…disappointment. "Naruto, using the Rasengan shouldn't have been necessary during this training. As your master technique, and as a jutsu that consumes much chakra, it should only be used in dire situations. Now, not only have you failed, but you've used up most of your own chakra."
Naruto rolled so that his entire body was on the ground. His arms shook as he pushed up on them. "I…do…not…fail," he rasped out.
Kakashi sighed. "Perhaps you haven't yet…" He pulled his right arm out of his pocket, extending his index and middle finger into a peace sign. Two flying shuriken easily landed on them. "…since Sasuke has decided to announce his presence."
"Katon Housenka no Jutsu!" Sasuke flew forward, releasing balls of fire from his mouth. Kakashi jumped, avoiding the flames. Naruto used this opportunity to pull himself up. His body still felt shaky, but he ignored it. He wouldn't fail. Grabbing the tree trunk, he pulled himself along the sturdy wooded support.
Sasuke launched a second wave of attacks, sending every weapon in his arsenal towards his teacher as he repelled upwards. The kunai and shuriken impacted Kakashi's chest, and his body fell downward, hitting the ground with a loud thud.
Sasuke pulled out his Fuma Shuriken, knowing that his instructor would not be beaten so easily. As he predicted, the body on the ground puffed into a fallen log. So where had the real Kakashi gone? He looked up just as a blue sandal descended on his face. Calling on his taijutsu skill, Sasuke blocked with his forearms, and spun quickly, trying to get behind his target. Successfully deflecting most of the impact off his arms, he shadowed behind him mentor, grabbing the Jounin's vest to execute his Lion Combo. As soon has he touched the green material, he realized his mistake. "A replication." It wasn't a technique Kakashi usually employed. "Damn." Why hadn't he noticed it with his sharingan? It was a rookie mistake, and it was going to cost him.
Turning his head, he realized the Jounin was already on top of his other target. "Naruto!" He kicked the replication in the back, and then spun, grabbing a kunai while launching the Fuma Shuriken in his hand.
Kakashi stretched his arm in front of him with perfect timing, grabbing the large shuriken by its open center and condensing it back into one blade. Simultaneously, he grabbed Naruto by his spiky blond hair, pulling him backwards. He snapped the blade of Sasuke's shuriken to Naruto's neck.
Sasuke planted his feet on the ground, bring the kunai across to his right shoulder, ready to strike. He saw the situation in front of him, and his eyes widened, fingers tensing around the weapon handle. He didn't move.
"Eh, Baka! Why are you just standing there?" Naruto yelled to Sasuke, struggling against his captor.
Sasuke's eyebrows drew together, and a bead of sweat formed on his forehead. Kakashi's eye's narrowed at him.
"Yes, Sasuke, what is your next move? It seems an impossible situation. One mistake, and Naruto will die." He pulled the blade closer to Naruto's neck.
Sasuke stood, kunai still drawn back, breathing heavily. His forearm twitched with the rising and falling of his muscles. He still didn't move.
"Sasuke, what are you doing? We'll lose at this rate!" When Sasuke still didn't respond, Naruto stopped struggling, looking questioningly at the boy. "Sasuke?"
The Uchiha tensed before dropping his arm. The kunai blade stabbed itself into the ground. "This training is pointless," he said, turning on his sandal to walk away.
Naruto's eyes widened with surprise, then with anger. "What the hell are you doing?" Sasuke ignored him.
"I was hoping you two would be better today, but it is obvious you are still not at your best." Kakashi lowered the blade, and released his hold on Naruto. "There was no cooperation. Launching separate attacks only hindered your performance."
Naruto folded his arms, casting a glare at Sasuke's back. "Wasn't my idea," he grumbled. "Wasn't my idea to give up either. I'm not a coward."
Sasuke stopped, turning his head slightly. "You're the one who got caught. These exercises are useless to me if you can't keep up."
"Stop acting like you're better than me!" Naruto clenched his fists, ready to run after Sasuke.
"Naruto, enough," Kakashi told him, sticking his hands in his pocket. Naruto stood down. "Your attacks today showed a lack of planning. You are usually able to use your jutsu with more sophistication."
"But--" Naruto stopped himself and stared hard at the ground, not surprised that his sensei had taken Sasuke's side. Sasuke was his protégé, after all, and now Naruto was all alone. He allowed himself to wish for Sakura's presence again. "Things have been tough lately, Kakashi-sensei. I may not have been at my best."
"Ah, yes." Kakashi said looking down at him. "Sakura's absence is weighing heavily on all our minds." There was no admonishment in his voice, just understanding.
Naruto looked up at him, slightly surprised at his teacher's astuteness. Reminding himself that Kakashi wasn't trying to play favorites, he forced his bitter annoyance away. "I can't stop thinking about her," he said, voice low. "Can't stop wishing she was here."
They both looked up when Sasuke grunted. He didn't turn, but his voice carried clearly over his shoulder. "You've allowed this to affect you too much. You need to learn to control your emotions. Like a true shinobi."
Naruto frowned, then made himself taller. "That's not my ninja way."
Sasuke shook his head. "Baka."
He'd pushed just the right buttons, and Naruto fumed. "How can you act like this doesn't affect you?"
"She was a comrade who died for her village. I honor her for that. She knew that death was a real possibility for a ninja. We all did."
"She loved you so much, but you dismiss her so easily!"
Sasuke stayed quiet.
"Answer me, damnit!"
"I don't have time for this. I have to train." He began walking away again.
Naruto wasn't done with him, though. "I hope I never become like you. So used to death that I start disrespecting my important people--"
Kakashi placed a hand on Naruto's shoulder, cutting off his rant. "Enough. Let's end training for today."
Sasuke grunted, but kept walking away, disappearing into the forest.
Naruto hung his head, not looking up at his teacher. "I know what you're going to say. That he doesn't show his emotions like me." He took a deep breath. "I know that. But he acts like none of us matter. Like Sakura-chan's death doesn't matter. She…she deserves a lot better than that."
Kakashi didn't respond, and Naruto finally looked up at his teacher. "Sensei…?"
"There's no template for grieving," the Jounin told him, staring off into the forest. "Sasuke's dealing with it in the only way he knows how." He kept his hand on Naruto's shoulder, pushing slightly to make Naruto walk. "Come with me."
"Where?"
"Something that will make you feel better."
Naruto shook his head. "I'm not hungry."
"Good. Because I'm not feeding you."
…...
Naruto stood next to his teacher on the circular platform. The sun was sinking, casting a dim yellow glow on the clearing. "Kakashi-sensei, I don't understand. What are we doing here?"
Kakashi placed a gloved hand on Naruto's back, prompting him to walk towards the center of the circle. They stopped in front of the prism shaped monument, which looked more golden than teal in the sun's decaying light. "Talk to her."
Naruto looked up, confused. "What do you mean?"
"You will never be able to forget her, Naruto. This will at least help you grieve." He moved his hand from Naruto's back to his shoulder. "Talk to her," he reiterated.
Naruto studied his teacher's face with arched eyebrow, trying to figure out if he was extremely crazy, or extremely wise. He settled on the latter. Turning to the monument, he kneeled in front of the rows of carved names. The edges of most of the engravings had dulled with time, but hers was still crisp. He hesitantly reached out a hand, tracing over the strokes of her name.
"Hello, Sakura-chan…"
…...
The red and white fans on the wall flickered yellow with the candle. He placed the holder on the alter in front of his family memorial, watching the shadows play on the walls. They created shapes, images, scenes--none of wish he could notice. He'd trained his mind to understand reality, not the imaginary. And when reality was too much to bear…
He threw his hand out, sweeping it hard across the altar. The candle and holder clattered to the ground, extinguishing easily on the cement. The room turned black against Sasuke's hollow breathing.

Sasuke's body flew above her head, hitting a tree trunk behind them with a thud. She gasped in pain for him as he slid down the bark and settled at the base. His palm involuntarily opened and she noticed that the kunai had not been deployed. The exploding tag was still attached to the hilt of the weapon.
"Sasuke-kun!" She lunged at his prone form, sliding to halt against the dirt ground. She pulled the makeshift bomb from his hand and launched it at the enemy they'd been fighting. Had the yajuu stayed in its original form, it could have easily avoided the blade. But it had chosen to morph, and in its enlarged and energy-bound state, the kunai was able to imbed itself in its shoulder. It wasn't a critical point, but she hoped it would slow him down enough for her to take care of Sasuke, and find Naruto.
The shape shifter growled in pain as its shoulder rippled and bulged. The kunai sank further and further in, until it was pulled completely under his skin. Sakura used this opportunity to assess her teammate's condition. She moved his head, placing a palm on his bleeding temple. He groaned slightly against the movement, and his eyes slitted open. She sighed in relief before her medical training took over again. "Sasuke-kun? Can you hear me?"
"S-Sa…kra." His eyes focused on her face, and he tried to push himself up on shaky hands.
"Ne, Sasuke-kun," she said, stopping any further movement. "Don't move so suddenly. You'll hurt yourself more." She steadied his back by placing an arm around his shoulders, and pulled him up. "Use me for support," she told him, "we have to get out of here and find Naruto."
He nodded to her, closing his eyes. The tremors that ran through his body suddenly subsided-- he'd opened one of the gates to stabilize himself, she realized.
They pushed passed the tree, trying to get deeper into the forest. They needed to regroup before facing the yajuu again. Sasuke seemed to realize this too, for he didn't argue as she led them further from their attacker.
"I hope Naruto didn't get himself into any trouble," she said, more to herself than him. "He was supposed to meet us an hour ago, but still--"
The sharp breeze that grazed her right cheek stopped her sentence. She brought her hand to her face when she felt wetness there. Her fingers came away red and sticky. Sasuke saw her wound, and then turned his attention forward. She followed his gaze, eyes widening when she saw the same exploding kunai she'd thrown two minutes ago embedded in the ground if front of them. The characters on the tag were burning.
Sasuke reacted first, grabbing her around the waist and using his speed to propel them beyond the dagger. They landed ten feet away, his weight on top of her, before the forest behind them flashed, and debris rained down on their bodies.
He rolled off of her quickly, and she could see that he'd reactivated his sharingan. Three shuriken were held between his fingers, and he was posed to launch them. "Sakura, stay down," he ordered, as he stood up in front of her. He was breathing hard, and blood was dripping from the cuts on his face and arms. He closed his eyes again, and the heaving stopped.
He'd opened another gate she realized, and her pink eyebrows drew together in concern. Kakashi-sensei had taught them that technique almost a year ago, but had warned them to use it only in situations of life or death. She'd understood why he'd placed that restriction on them-- Lee-san's battle and injuries were still fresh on her mind. Their teacher's order hadn't really applied to her, though. She had not been able to master the technique like Naruto and Sasuke had. The boys had both obliged their teacher's request so far, but their enemy was powerful today, and Sasuke was…
He turned quickly and flung the shuriken towards her. She ducked in time, but knew she wasn't in any danger. The trajectory indicated that they would have flown over the top of her head to impale whatever was behind her. She looked in the direction of the flying ninja stars as she retreated to where Sasuke was. The shape shifter was there, and his body absorbed Sasuke's weapons just as it has absorbed the kunai. The demon howled as it had before, and the energy that surrounded it sparked. The howl became lower and more rhythmic. It was laughing.
Kakashi leaned with his back against the railing, Jiraiya with his forearms on it. It was something of a custom with them whenever they met on the rounded balcony above Konoha to discuss important matters. Today's topic of conversation: his squad. Or what was left of it.
"Teamwork isn't prime these days." Kakashi said, placing his elbows against the railing as well. It stretched his body more, giving him a lazier look. "But with their new ranks, the team will soon be dispersed. So perhaps it's a moot point."
Jiraiya turned his head to Kakashi. "We both know the squads serve a greater purpose than just Genin training."
Kakashi looked to the Sennin and then looked away, saying nothing. Of course he knew.
"This has been a most unfortunate development," Jiraiya continued, staring at the streets of Konoha. "Sakura's presence was essential to both Sasuke and Naruto. It was an elemental balance."
"Yes. And now any bond Sasuke and Naruto shared has crumbled. They're both handling her death in ways that cannot be reconciled."
"How are the two of them doing? I saw Naruto yesterday, and he seemed to be in better spirits."
"Naruto has certainly matured tremendously. Sakura's death caused him to grow up faster than expected, but he's dealing with it surprisingly well." Kakashi looked down. "Or as well as one ever deals with the death of a teammate."
Jiraiya nodded, not pressing the young Jounin further. "Naruto is good at surprising people." He chuckled. "He reminds me a bit of myself."
"His antics are as infamous as yours, though I doubt he'll ever gain an affinity for writing." His words turned serious again. "He's known loneliness, but he has never truly known loss. He had been letting the grief consume him.
"Until you provided him with an outlet."
"…Hai."
"And what of your protégé? How has this been affecting him?"
Kakashi sighed, folding his arms across his chest. "Sasuke, unfortunately, is not dealing with it as well as he'd like us to believe."
Sakura glanced up at Sasuke, whose eyes were narrowed. He'd pulled two handle-less kunai from his leg pouch, but was waiting before attacking.
"You cannot defeat me, shinobi of Konoha." The voice was gruff and mechanical. "You and your comrades will die." The energy tendrils that surrounded the yajuu's body unwrapped themselves. The freed tentacles then plunged into its skin, which rippled and bubbled before releasing the three shuriken absorbed earlier. The energy arms launched them back towards Sasuke and Sakura, who just barely jumped out of the way.
Sasuke launched his kunai, but they were sent back towards him in the same manner. "Damn it," he swore, concealing himself behind a tree. Sakura had done the same.
"You cannot hide from me, shinobi." Sasuke was barely able to jump before one of the energy tendrils wrapped itself around his tree. He somersaulted in the air, pushing off against a tree branch before landing behind the energy beam. He tried to cut it with his dagger, but it remained intact. His mouth opened in shock. "What is this jutsu?"
He jumped back as the tendril attempted to assault him again. Knowing he had no other choice, he focused his eyes and performed the appropriate hand seals. He cupped his left palm, and allowed the blue chakra to gather and spark there. Once a sizable orb had formed in his hand, he ran, gathering speed to give his arm the blade like effect. His voice vibrated low in his throat as he cast his hand forward, charging at the monster. The chidori never failed him.
An energy tentacle flared in his path. He kept running, attempting to cut through. The high pitched chirping that had accompanied his movement stopped abruptly. After a second of disorientation, he realized that he, too, had stopped. Looking at his arm, he saw that the energy from the shape shifter had wound itself up to his elbow, causing a prickling sensation. The chakra he had gathered in his palm swirled and merged with the energy tentacle. The tingling he felt morphed into searing pain. He cried out, and pulled on his captured appendage. It clung to his chakra, forcing him to deactivate his sharingan and release the incomplete jutsu.
His arm pulled out with the energy change, and he stumbled backwards, clutching it. His master technique had failed.
"Ay-Yah!" Sasuke threw his thrusting arm back, and then surged forward. The blue chakra in his hand sparked and chirped until it connected with the large bolder. It exploded into small particles.
Sasuke stepped back, surveying his handy work. His shoulders shook with his unsteady breath, but he ignored it. All there was was his training.
"Impressive. Your chakra control has increased."
Sasuke wasn't surprised when Kakashi spoke. He'd noticed the Jounin leaning against the spruce tree earlier, but hadn't cared to say anything. "What are you doing here?"
"Since normal training sessions seem so pointless to you, I thought I'd come and see how you've been spending your time."
Sasuke turned and walked back to where he'd started his original run. He turned, and stood ready, hands in the appropriate position for the first seal.
Kakashi moved directly in his path.
"What are you doing?"
"If you insist on training by yourself, I insist on making sure you don't injure yourself."
"I'm fine."
Kakashi folded his arms. "How many gates have you opened?"
Sasuke looked down. "None."
The Jounin stepped forward. "Do not lie to me, Sasuke."
Sasuke looked up at his teacher with irritation. "Two."
"As I suspected." Kakashi's visible eye looked at his student with a mixture of concern and disappointment. "Perhaps it was a mistake to teach you that technique. I overestimated your ability to use discretion."
"I don't need a lecture, Kakashi."
"I know. You were never one to listen to lectures. But this is not a lecture. It's a warning. If you continue as you are, you will aggravate the curse seal."
Sasuke stiffened at his words.
"And Sakura isn't here to patch up the damage you inflict on your body."
Sasuke's eyes widened, surprised.
"You thought I didn't know. That I was oblivious to how much you were, and still are, over exerting yourself. Sakura was becoming very good at healing, and she would gladly use her talents to help you every time you asked." He looked at Sasuke to see if his words were having any effect. The boy was making a conscious effort to not look back.
"I wasn't doing anything wrong."
"No, I suppose you weren't. But she was always careful to make sure you didn't stimulate the seal. Your well being was very important to her; I trusted that she wouldn't let you take things too far. But she's gone now."
"I know she's gone."
"Hn. I was beginning to wonder if you'd realized it or not."
"Don't patronize me. I'm not a child."
"Then stop acting like one."
Sasuke clenched his jaw. "I don't have time for this. I have more important things to do."
"Ah, yes. Your training." The Jounin opened the weapons pouch on his leg, and extracted a blade lazily. In a flash, his feet planted themselves in a striking pose, and he threw the weapon at Sasuke. The boy barely had time to dive.
"What are you doing?" He demanded.
"Training you, of course." His voice was mellow and lethargic. "Fight me, Sasuke. I may present more of a challenge to you than a boulder."
Sasuke didn't have time to argue before five more daggers flew in his direction. Kakashi was forcing this, one way or another. Fine. He planted his feet, and his right palm closed around his left forearm. "I'm ready."
"Aa, I forgot to set the ground rules." Kakashi shook his head absentmindedly.
"What ground rules?"
"During this training, you will not be allowed to use any genjutsu or ninjutsu."
Sasuke blanched. "What?"
"No illusionary techniques, no fire element jutsu, no sharingan, no chidori--"
"I know what's being restricted," Sasuke snapped, visibly annoyed.
"Good, good," Kakashi replied, ignoring Sasuke's frustration. "Then there should be no problem. Unless you don't think you can win without those little tricks."
Sasuke grunted, dropping his arms to his satchel and extracting two kunai. "I can take you with just these."
"Oh yes, I forgot." Kakashi said, tapping his forehead twice, "No weapons."
"No weapons?"
"Hai hai, you may put those away."
Sasuke threw the blades down dramatically. "What sort of useless training is this then?"
"Everything is so pointless to you these days. Humor your old sensei, Sasuke." All laziness was gone from his voice. "This is the most important lesson I will ever teach you."
Sasuke stared at his teacher, trying to determine whether this exercise was a waste of his time or not. Kakashi met his glare evenly. Grudgingly, Sasuke nodded slowly.
"Let us begin then." Kakashi raised his arm, palm up, towards Sasuke. He bent his fingers to his hand twice, beckoning his opponent. "Come."
With a low rumble in his throat, Sasuke charged forward. He allowed his speed to increase-- Kakashi hadn't forbidden taijutsu, after all-- until his body movements were nothing more than a blur to any observer. He angled sideways, coming in to attack from behind. Kakashi's back got bigger as Sasuke approached. This attack would be hard for even the Jounin to detect without the use of his sharingan eye. He allowed himself a small smile.
That is, until his teacher turned and stared right at him, sharingan unmasked. Two shining objects were also heading straight at him. Sasuke swore, and dove out of the way of the shuriken. He rolled into his landing, and pushed himself up, glaring at his teacher who was still a good six feet away from him. The ninja stars hit the spruce tree, one after another.
"You cheated," Sasuke growled.
Kakashi raised his eyebrows. "No, I didn't."
"You used weapons and your sharingan."
"Hai, I did. I never said that I couldn't use these techniques. You were the only one with restrictions."
"How is that fair?" Sasuke quickly gathered chakra at his feet and repelled upward as a few more daggers flew in his direction. He landed on a tree branch, now even further from his target than he had been before.
"Fair?" Kakashi called up to him, spinning the handle of a kunai around his index finger. "Who said anything about fair?"
Sakura watched the movements from her position behind the tree. From the years of working with Team 7, she knew that her most important contribution to missions was her intelligence. She'd be of no use to Sasuke if she tried to fight. She'd only get in the way. So she'd just have to find a way to defeat the yajuu from here.
She saw Sasuke perform the hand seals for a fire jutsu, but the tendrils intercepted and absorbed the flames. He tried again, using the Goukakyuu no Jutsu this time. Three more tendrils emerged from the chest of the shape shifter, dispelling the flames. Sakura's eyes lit up. Bingo.
She observed for a few more minutes, noting that all the energy seemed to be focused on that central spot on his chest. If they wanted to attack, that would be the best location. But how? The creature was able to intercept all jutsu. It'd have to be a direct attack then. If they thrust an exploding kunai there, that would do the trick. It wouldn't stop the weapon from being extracted though. Pulling her satchel forward, she dug through the scrolls within it. Her hand closed around the one she wanted: a blue and red binding scroll. She would be able to bind the kunai to the yajuu, provided that Sasuke could buy her enough time.
She peaked out from behind the tree again, trying to see how he was fairing. As if on cue, he landed next to her, pressing himself against the wood. His breathing was heavy, and he'd used up a lot of chakra despite opening two of his gates.
"Sasuke-kun?"
"I'll have to open the third gate soon," he told her, his shoulders moving up and down.
"Ne, it's too dangerous. You'll hurt yourself."
"There's no other choice."
She shook her head vehemently. "Can you keep him distracted for five minutes?"
He tilted his head towards her. "What are you planning."
"I think I know its weakness," she said, tapping the middle of her chest. "If I can tag him there, and bind the weapon to the body…"
"I should do it. I can use the chidori."
"No, you've used too much chakra already. And the curse seal…" She cut herself off. He was aware of the consequences. "And you'd never gain any thrusting speed at close range." They'd both seen what happened when he tried to use the chidori earlier.
"I should still go, since this is close-range, and I'm better at taijutsu."
"Skill in taijutsu won't help in this situation. Besides, it's after you. It hasn't come after me."
"Yet."
"Someone needs to distract it. We both know I wouldn't be able to provide a distraction for very long. I'm no match for it. You'd never have time to approach him and perform the binding justu."
"Getting close to him is too dangerous for you."
"This has more of a chance of succeeding if I go." She made her voice brave. "I won't fail you, Sasuke-kun."
He paused, looking at the ground, before looking back at her. "Five minutes?"
"Hai."
He nodded, before launching himself back into the trees and into the battle. She gathered the scroll, an exploding note and her kunai, treading lightly in the opposite direction as him "Good luck, Sasuke-kun," she whispered as she made her way to the monster.
"What's the matter, Sasuke? You haven't yet been able to hit me."
Sasuke listened to Kakashi's reproach from his hidden position within the trees. He clamped his teeth together. This training session was unfair. For the past forty minutes, he'd launched every attack he could think of against his teacher. But he was at a serious disadvantage, and nothing he tried had gotten close to even touching a hair on the Jounin's head.
He, on the other hand, had not been so lucky. The cut above his right eyebrow and been steadily dripping blood down his face, into his eye. He wiped at it, reddening the bandages on his arms, and only now had it begun to clot and dry. He ignored the pain in his side as he breathed. The last kick from Kakashi had no doubt bruised a rib or two. The sweat that had covered most of his body was mixing with the blood from various other injuries, and he hissed as they began to sting. This was not going well, and he had very few options.
Kakashi, it seemed, wasn't done with his speeches. "It's getting late, Sasuke, and while I could continue this for a while, I doubt you'll be able to take much more." The Jounin was rubbing the back of his head, making his boredom quite evident. "You could try attacking me from behind again, but I'll be able to detect that as I did before. None of your aerial attacks succeeded either. Try again, and you may get impaled by my weapons. It is too bad you cannot attack me from under ground. That could have possibly worked."
Sasuke, tried to tune out his teacher, but couldn't get his ears to comply. What mind games was Kakashi playing? He changed his position, jumping quickly to a tree on the other side of the training ground.
"I suppose there's not much else you can do, since you are so injured."
Sasuke unconsciously touched his tender ribs, but kept his eyes focused on Kakashi. He had to find a weakness to exploit.
"Hiding is the safest thing for you now."
You cannot hide from me, shinobi!
Sasuke tensed as the voice invaded his head. Was Kakashi using the Sharingan to hypnotize him? No, he'd made no eye contact. It wasn't possible.
Shaking out his nerves, he tried to plot out his next approach. He need to get close for hand to hand combat, but Kakashi never allowed him within five feet before deflecting his attack. He needed to divert attention somehow. An exploding tag would have been ideal, but he couldn't use weapons.
There was some twittering above his head, before something white splashed on the branch before him. He looked at the dropping that had narrowly missed his foot, and then up at the birds that were perched above him. There must have been at least a dozen crows, oblivious to the battle that was being waged below them.
It gave him an idea.
Changing his position again, he skimmed the ground to grab one of the small rocks mixed with the soil. Repositioning himself so that he was now on a tree directly in front of the Jounin, he took aim. The rock cut quickly through the air, pelting the wood under one of the crows. It was enough to startle the bird into a screeching flight. It's companions, reacting to the action, also began flapping their wings and crowing wildly. The fleet swarmed out of the tree in random directions.
Kakashi turned his head at the ruckus. Seeing his opportunity, Sasuke lunged out of his position quickly and charged. He easily cleared seven, six, five, four, three feet. It was the closest he'd gotten that afternoon. His hands fisted and flew towards the two critical points on the jawbone and chest.
Kakashi's defense kicked in again, and he raised his arms, blocking both fists while pushing back. "What good is a direct attack, Sasuke? We both know you cannot win with this strategy."
Sasuke ignored him, trying to maintain his close range. He ducked and turned around his teacher's back, sliding low. "I will not fail," he told the Jounin, brining his foot up to connect with the masked jaw from below. A gloved hand gripped his ankle before it could make contact. Planting his palms on the ground, Sasuke tried to make the blow with his other foot. It, too, was caught, and he was trapped in an awkward handstand. Kakashi pulled with enough power to flip Sasuke and propel him back.
"No," Sasuke hissed, realizing he that the distance between them was growing again. If he lost that one advantage, it was over. His instincts took over. His feet barely hit the ground before he was charging again. He couldn't lose the distance.
Kakashi sighed, waiting for the wasted attack. "Tch. You are making this very hard, Sasuke," he said, not talking about the fight. He withdrew a kunai from his holster and flung it loosely, making sure his aim was slightly off. It grazed Sasuke's cheek, forming a thin red line that soon smeared down his face. The blood was ignored. "Apparently, this lesson has been lost on you."
Extending his arm, he inflicted a blow to Sasuke's chest before the boy could see the attack. It stopped his forward motion. Kakashi easily spun behind him, grabbing his arm and pinning it behind his back. He dug his knee into Sasuke's spine, and pushed him down and back into the ground. The rest of his weight was used to restrain the boy's legs. Sasuke grimaced when his bloody cheek roughly met dirt.
Kakashi sighed on top of him. "I was expecting a bit more from you. But I suppose this is all you know." Suddenly, he released Sasuke's arm, and withdrew his knee. "Training is over." He stood, looking down at the boy.
Sasuke braced his weight on his forearm and shakily pushed himself to his knees. He kept his mouth down, spitting blood and saliva onto the ground. His ear twitched as the Jounin spoke.
"Perhaps I had too much confidence in your abilities, Sasuke. Or perhaps you just peaked early." He turned, moving to retrieve his fallen kunai. "If that is the case, you probably will not advance past this level." He spoke apathetically, as if the Uchiha was nothing more than a worn out shoe.
"Shut up." Sasuke fisted his hand, grabbing stray pieces of grass as he did. "Your training…was unfair."
"Do not blame me for your failure, Sasuke."
Failure…
"The situation was impossible."
"You should have still found a solution." Kakashi folded his arms and shrugged, "How will you protect your precious people if you can't even complete this simple training?"
Though he tried hard not to let Kakashi's words offend him, they swirled through his head, gnawing at his already worn temper. As if trapped in an echo, Sasuke couldn't help but hear all the sounds, sentences and accusations reverberate in his brain.
How will you protect your precious people? Coward. Arrogant jerk. No options. Unfairunfairunfair. You can't hide from me, shinobi.
His mouth twitched as a drop of sweat trailed past his lips. It tasted of salt and blood.
Baka.it's no use.i won'tsee another preciouspersondie.
The voice soon became two, then three, and a thousand, all yelling at the same time.
Toostrongcrusemedieshinobiit'snousehatemedon'tlietoodangerousfoolishlittlebrother…
His head swam against the assault, and he let out an involuntary gasp. And then, just as soon as they came, the chorus coalesced into one voice that he loved and hated and missed and feared at the same time.
I won't fail you, Sasuke-kun.
It froze his dizziness, and pushed his body into cold, mechanical motion. "I will protect them," he said hoarsely, steadying his muscles.
Kakashi shook his head, closing his eyes. "Do not be foolish…"
Foolish little brother…
"…you can barely protect yourself right now."
I won't fail you…
"Shut up!" Sasuke sped to his weapons pouch, and grabbed a kunai. Releasing a guttural sound from his throat, he was on his feet and charging at Kakashi. The Jounin turned his head as he heard Sasuke's approach, but did nothing else.
"You restricted all my techniques, while you used all of yours! There was nothing I could do against that," Sasuke growled like a mantra, "there was nothing else I could do, nothing else I could do, nothing else I could--"
I won't fail…
…but I did.
Clarity suddenly blinded him, and he jerked to a halt, kunai extended.
Kakashi turned fully this time, not flinching at the blade pointed a few centimeters from his neck. He was more focused on the boy in front of him, breathing shakily with blood shot eyes. The hands holding the kunai trembled. Kakashi had barely lifted his fingers to Sasuke's before the weapon tumbled and struck the ground. The mantra was still on Sasuke's mouth, though just a whisper. "…nothing I could…do…" He wasn't complaining about the training any more. So this had been Kakashi's true mind game, and he'd slipped easily into it.
Kakashi physically pulled the boys hands down from their frozen position at his neck. "It was an impossible situation, Sasuke. Shinobi are faced with those far too often. And the hardest thing to do is accepting that sometimes there is nothing you can do. Remember that. And remember that her death was not your fault."
Sasuke stared at him, but slowly shook his head. "I don't know what you're talking about." He didn't sound convincing, even to himself.
"I recognized the attack pattern you were using earlier, before I interrupted you." Kakashi put his hand on Sasuke's shoulder, forcing him to step back. "Stop looking for a way to save her, Sasuke. It won't bring her back. And the obsession will consume you." Like your thirst for revenge still does, he didn't add.
Sasuke shrugged off the hand, and put some distance between them. He still hadn't looked his teacher in the eye. "That's what all this was for. To teach me that lesson."
"Traditional methods have never worked with you. And I don't think tying you to a tree would have worked this time."
Sasuke kept walking. "You've wasted your time, because this isn't an obsession."
"Then let it go."
Sasuke kept walking. "I can't."
"She'd want you to let it go."
Sasuke stopped walking, and puffed out a breath. "Hn."
"I know how you work, Sasuke. You are narrow-minded and stubborn. And you cannot deal with death."
Sasuke turned in a flash, muscles tensed and eyes furious. "I've dealt with death my entire life."
"No, Sasuke. That tragedy made you live a dark life. It wasn't so long ago that it set you on a path where all you knew revenge and power. You focused your pain into Itachi."
Kakashi could feel Sasuke's thirst for blood at the mention of his brother's name. He knew that was something Sasuke would never be able to let go of, even if he did someday kill his brother.
"But now, who is there to blame Sasuke? You dismiss her death when you're with others, but let it haunt you when you're alone. Why?"
Kakashi watched as Sasuke's shoulders rose and fell rhythmically. There were only two ways to get the boy to talk, he'd learned: baiting and waiting. And they'd waited for long enough. "What are you trying to prove?" Kakashi's eyes narrowed. "What are you trying to prove to yourself?"
"…"
"That you're strong? Well, let me help. You are obviously very strong. We all know that much."
"I don't have time for your--"
"That you can save her? You can train as hard as you want. Relive that day as much as you want, but it will change nothing."
"Stop." His tone was deadly; the right nerves were being hit.
"You've been taking out your frustration on anyone who crosses your path. Ignoring their concern. Pushing people away."
"Stop."
"Even in training, you refuse to depend on anyone but yourself. And you goad Naruto when you know how easily he is provoked."
"Stop."
"He is your teammate, and beneath all your juvenile rivalry, your friend. Yet you've allowed your relationship to decay."
"I said enough."
"So now instead of losing one teammate, you're about to lose two. Is all this worth that?"
"I don't have to justify anything to you."
"I know that. But I don't think you do--"
"Shut up, Kakashi."
"So I'll ask again. What are you trying to prove? Why won't you let her death go?"
"Shut up."
"You trap yourself in this situation, day after day, playing out that battle--"
"Shut up. Shut up! Shut u--"
"--as if you can change the out come. Why won't you accept the sacrifice she made--"
"Because it should have been me!"
Perhaps it was just their imagination, but Sasuke's words seemed to echo endlessly in the silence that had now gripped the clearing. Kakashi tried to read the expression on his face, but couldn't decide if it was shock at the words he'd said, or appall at having revealed weakness. In either case, the truth had finally come.
Kakashi watched Sasuke's breathing falter, but didn't say anything. He would wait.
After minutes of silence, the boy final resigned himself to speech. "The situation was too dangerous," he said, voice low but level. "I shouldn't have allowed her near it."
"I understand your need to protect those important to you, Sasuke, and I understand the guilt you are feeling. But she was a shinobi, and she knew the risks that came with that title. You said so yourself. You were not her guardian, and no one blames you for what happened."
"Words are easy to say, Kakashi. But she was with me, under my command. The responsibility is mine."
"Hai, this is true. But you must learn the difference between responsibility and fault. Yes, you outranked her, but this was not your mission alone. It was a team mission, the final for our squad before it was to be disbanded. You are not to blame."
Sasuke didn't say anything.
"And as hard as it is to accept, sometimes our best efforts are still not enough to protect those we care about. It is unfair, but that is the nature of life." He couldn't see the expression on Sasuke's face. His black forelocks were obstructing and casting shadows. But the boy hadn't mouthed off yet. And he was still there. Positive signs.
"As I see it, you have two options. You can let her death plague your existence as you are now. Looking for ways to save her. Reliving the choices you made that day till you have nothing left of her but sorrow."
Sasuke's head dropped further, before it tilted slightly, listening. It was the only indication he'd give that he was waiting to hear what Kakashi had to say.
"Or, you can stop blaming yourself and can remember her for how she lived. And for what she gave up for you. For us all."
"What if I don't know how to do that." It wasn't a question.
"Then you learn."
She dodged the tentacle that tried to decapitate her. She'd made it close to his chest, but hadn't failed complete detection. It'd take a little longer, but she had to succeed. So many were counting on her.
On the outside, she could tell that Sasuke had upped his attacks; the warmth of the fire stream was causing perspiration of form on her neck. She didn't know how much longer he'd be able to hold out. She unrolled the binding scroll with a flick of her wrist, and angled the kunai and tag, ready to plunge it.
"Sakura!"
She'd barely heard Sasuke scream her name before she felt a blinding pain wrap itself around her body. She looked down to see that one of the tentacles had wrapped itself around her. She opened her mouth, both a cry and blood emerging. Instinctively, she tightened her grip on the kunai and scroll. She couldn't fail. Not now, damn it! Not now.
Her eyes blurred and focused, seeing Sasuke throw what seemed like his entire arsenal of weapons at the energy arms. "It's no use, Sasuke-kun," she wasn't sure if she was speaking aloud or not, "that won't hurt him."
The tendrils had quickly woven their way up her body, hunching her shoulders forward as it lifted her. She needed to act soon, before she lost the ability to use her arms. The characters on the exploding tag had already activated. Good. This would happen soon. Re-angling her throwing arm against the pain, he launched the kunai. It implanted itself in his chest, and he howled in pain. She smiled dizzily-- it was a critical point after all. The energy began to snake past her shoulders. "Not yet," she slurred. There was more thing to be done. She willed her other hand to bring the scroll to her face. She gripped it between her teeth, and pushed her hands together further to perform the necessary seals. Bird, horse, sheep…
The scroll began to glow.
…monkey, frog, tiger.
She opened her mouth, letting the scroll drop into her waiting palms. "Baindingu no jutsu." The kunai turned red, as did the area surrounding it on the shape shifter's body.
It howled louder, and the tendrils began to tighten around her. "Release me," it demanded, as blood dripped out of her mouth. She heard the bones in her arm begin to snap. The scroll dropped from her hands. It didn't matter. The binding was complete. "Release me, or we both die!"
She looked at the exploding tag. The last character was burning. It must have been the searing pain, because she managed a small laugh, which turned into a fit of bloody coughs. The bones in her arm had been broken, and she was beginning to feel the same pressure on her spine. In her daze, her eyes became glassy, and the water spilled down onto her cheeks. She sent a silent message of love to everyone she cared about. Mother. Father. Kakashi-sensei. Naruto. Sasuke-kun…
The tag lit up.
He snapped her spine.
Naruto sat cross-legged in front of the teal monument. The evening wind gently ruffled his hair, dropping leaves and petals it had picked off the nearby trees into his blond spikes. He reached up and plucked the foliage out, releasing the shrubs back into the stream of air.
He turned his fingers back to the monument, reaching out to trace the outline of her name. It had become something of a ritual when he came to visit her each evening. It helped him remember that she had been real. And that she would never be forgotten.
He used to talk to her, tell her about his day, about the things that had happened in Konoha since she'd been gone. But recently, he'd found that just sitting quietly (something he'd never been able to do before) with her memory was enough.
The wind picked up again, assaulting him with stray leaves and flowers. But this time, it carried a familiar chakra as well, one that he would not have expected to be here. He pivoted his head around, eyes showing his surprise at being right. "Sasuke?"
The Uchiha was standing a few feet behind him, ignoring the breeze that swirled around his body. There were bandages around his torso, and a gauze patch taped above his eyebrow and on his cheek. His face wasn't etched into its usual stoic pose. Instead, there was something Naruto couldn't quite identify.
Yes he could. Sasuke suddenly looked nothing like the arrogant jerk Naruto had been mad at for the past few weeks. He looked…like a normal boy, hurting over the death of a good friend. Just like Naruto was. They were the same.
Sasuke looked at Naruto before slowly walking up next to him. Pulling his hands out of his pockets, he hesitantly lowered himself to the ground, settling on his legs. Naruto furrowed his brows in confusion, staring at Sasuke, waiting for an explanation. Sasuke just stared forward at the monument, lips drawn in a thin line. Naruto let the tension slip away from his eyebrows, realizing that he'd already gotten his explanation. Sasuke was here, wasn't he? He let a small smile form at his lips as he turned his attention to the monument too, softly asking the question that would reconnect them.
"Do you miss her?"
"…Aa."
"Me too."
Neither spoke after that, allowing the rustling air to be the only noise in the clearing. When the wind finally settled, it deposited the soft pink flower it had been carrying on the ground between them. It was a cherry blossom.

2006-10-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

A truly traumatising piece of news...could our free video site end up being not-so-free...?

http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/stories/G/GOOGLE_YOUTUBE?SITE=ASIAONE&SECTION=TOP_STORIES&TEMPLATE=DEFAULT&CTIME=2006-10-09-18-23-02

i just read this article. Hopefully weixue won't be that...desperate until he pays to post videos. hmm?

ok promos are over. I guess i'll be retaining. Studying is required to pass in JC...my intelligence level doesn't allow for breezing though. Oh well, what's done is done. Speaking of which, It's a week of bullshit ahead. Today was 3hrs in school trying to do PW, which obviously didn't go as planned. Hilyah and Yujia are actually sadistic people! They laugh at Happy Tree Friends. I'm starting to worry that those little kids during our S-L project won't have only me to be terrified about. *na na na na nana na! na na na na nana na! na na na na na nana na na na na!!!*

Vjc is having a weeklong break after promos. Which means I'm out of any plans during the weekdays. yucks...and i was looking forward to some enjoyment before i got back the results.

By the way, anybody wants to watch miami vice, the baby movie by Jackie Chan, Death Note, and all the other movies? I haven't watched any.

ALL HAIL THE SLACKER KING!!! *carries a trophy of ruined future and tears*

weixue sucks. sucks. Sucks. SUcks. SUCks. SUCKS. SUCKS. THAT WEIRDO. KNNBCCBOMGWTFBBQ DOES HE HAVE TO TAKE GEOG TOO? No ROFL. ';..;' ohohohohohho!!

2006-10-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

Worlds Best Tricks Volume 2

2006-10-05T14:48:00.001+08:00

FFX-雨中唱歌動畫MV

I finally found the original japanese version!!! *so happy*

2006-10-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

Eyes On Me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I love your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then I will know
that you are no dreamer

2006-09-29T22:39:00.000+08:00

i fainted at home today...
thank god i fell on parque flooring instead of marble.
shit.
it's back again.

F
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2006-09-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

omg this sucks...went to a new physician.

because of my tendon injury, i overused my left leg and thus my left hip has started to wear.
because of that my left waist compensated and the muscle there is strained, which in turn led to my upper right back being strained, since the muscles there were twisted naturally. Then that explained my still neck muscles.

OMG doesnt the body have a quarantine button? just let that tendon rot and die...don't kill my entire body. Dun wanna turn into a twisted rag...

going for xray after promos...

2006-09-25T18:51:00.000+08:00

Nobody's Watching Diet Coke & Mentos

complete lameness

2006-09-25T18:43:00.000+08:00

Brought to existence for a sole purpose;
To shield, to protect and to defend,
Them tiny specks called sand.
Standing valiantly in the path of crushing waves,
Permitting Them the carefree-ness They crave.
All at his expense.

He is angular, coarse, extensive, sacrificing,
Bearing brunt to Ocean's clawing clutching.
He gives Them tomorrow.
But do They remember His needs like any other?
God needed rest, what more He;
Their mere mortal Father.

Discernible wrinkles carved deeper by torrents,
Ain't news that that is foreign.He is waiting.
As the cascading palms of destruction descended,
Cold hard realization dawned Their obtuse sense:
The solitary fort that kept this monster at bay
Now lay as remains on the sea floor bed.

There He found not what he seek,But many before, just like Him.
Though forsaken, He had planted,Immense belief for whom He laboured.
He had waited,Till He could no more.

2006-09-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

went to JURONG(omg it's the other end of hoogmoongooossseee singapore!) bird park with jacqueline today. Supposed to study...we managed for around 1 hour odd. Then as expected it was a rampage ard the park.

Spoils of war:
one set of super duper sweaty clothes + slight blushing of my skin from the sun that's alr faded......

-$35 *dun kill me*=p

aching calves...

a bad temper from the camera going bust after 2 shots...for some UNKNOWN cause

as u can see...i am fully unable to study or do work. therefore i give up mugging for promos. Eat that you muggers!!!!!!!!!!!

Goldberg's depression scale...linked from puikit's blog. The results are O_O!!! To think i didnt know it

You have reached level 46 on the Goldberg scale.

0 - 9	Depression unlikely	21 - 35	Minor to moderate depression
10 - 17	Possibly minor depression	36 - 53	Moderate to severe depression
18 - 21	On the verge of depression	54+	Severe depression

You are having suicidal thoughts. This is a serious warning sign, and you must seek help quickly.

You have the symptoms of moderate to severe depression. The condition seems to cause serious problems in your everyday life, and you should consult your doctor immediately.

Depression is a disease like any other disease, and it can be treated very effectively. Recognising that you are suffering from depression is the first positive step. If you are depressed, you should arrange to see your doctor to talk about the illness right away. You may also want to raise the issue with your friends and family. You should look for support from these people you until you get well. Anyone can suffer from depression, and the symptoms can vary from person to person. Treatments, including medication and psychotherapy, have a very high success rate.

2006-09-20T19:14:00.000+08:00

Thaksin is overthrown...so i guess we can wait for their old, frail, revered king to come up and condemn the military who actually used him as one reason for the military coup. Or he would slip and fall on his way to the podium, break his neck and rest in peace. Whatever the case...16 military coups in 60yrs is testiment to the instability of thailand...as is its hordes of ladyboys & siao-kia muay thai warriors.

Personal benefit for this coup: parents may decided thailand too unstable and won't make me choose chiang mai for geog trip next yr =x

Long Live the Phantom Assassin!!! Coup de Gras!!! Foie Gras!!! wooohhh!!!

Learnt that Coup is actually pronouced Cooooo. Thanks to Vernetta Lopez =p

Had lunch with Jacqueline after school today. Then went for Maths tuition...omfg i feel so phooshed about the Promos. Went for my acupuncture after that...leg's feeling a ton better BUT I STILL CAN STRETCH!!!! T_T

That's about it...nothing exciting these few weeks. This is incredible but 4p'05 people are actually mugging already...
There can be miracles even if you don't believe..but do you have the power to stop it? No. Even I have started doing Maths tutorials...though i have my cousin's entry into Oxford Literary College, Josephine's Scholarship to Toronto College for International Bacalaueret, 4p's rising trend of mugging, and the fact that even jacqueline is mugging!!!(omgwtfnoplzzznooooooargh!)

ok enough...off to ECP for dinner. And contemplation

2006-09-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

O_O goddam!

2006-09-16T02:47:00.000+08:00

Hector, Prince of Troy

hawhawhawhaw randomness

2006-09-15T01:47:00.000+08:00

Diet Coke + Mentos

my god musical fountain sia

2006-09-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

Diet Coke Mentos Experiment

OMG I WANNA TRY THAT MAN

2006-09-15T01:01:00.000+08:00

Diet Coke+Mentos=Human experiment: EXTREME GRAPHIC CONTENT

nutcase

2006-09-13T19:05:00.000+08:00

123rd post!!! heh...ok that's it
September must have the highest birthrate of the year. Maybe christmas was the kinky time...as of now i know 23 people whose birthday falls in September. This CANNOT be coincidence...hell there are three people celebrating their birthday today alone...and god-knows-how-many on september 15th. Dad, 3 frens, oh and jolin tsai =p

Happy seventeenth birthday to mi'lady Jacqueline Sng Pei Fen!!! Love you always ^_^
and please get a blog k? Your blogskin will be designed after the promos =D

2006-09-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

jolin--jia zhuang mv

reminds me of 6 particular days

2006-09-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

figure skating

enjoy the envy you feel at cartiledge-framed people

2006-09-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

two things....yogi u suck....yogi ur aquarium pawns
1. Full name: Lim Cher Sheen Daryl
2. Name backwards: Lyrad Neehs Rehc Mil(omg Mil...my gym coach)
3. Were you named after someone: I got loads of clones in AJC
4. Meaning of name: Forent Knowledge Rising Sun(literal translation)
5. Nickname: Ducky, Darlie, Diahroea
6. Screen name: Ironwing
7. D.O.B: 2 August 1989
8. Place of birth: Banglapore
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10. Current location: Balcony
11. Star Sign: Leo
12. Religion: Buddist...but only religious thing i do is eat vegetarian on Vesak Day
13. Height: 174-175 cm
14. Weight: 55kg
15 . Shoe size: UK 9
16. Hair colour: Dark dark dark brown(used to be golden brown....) its natural btw
17. Eye colour: Brown
18. Who do you look like: Dad
19. Innie or Outtie: Innie
20. Leftie or rightie: Rightie
21. Gay, straight, bi or others: Beastal
22. Best friends: 4P gang...but i think it'll be Gary bah...dunno bout him tho
23. Best friend you trust most: Myself
24. Favourite pals: 4P'05
25. Best friend of opposite sex: I got no idea
26. Best buddies: 4P'05
27. Boyfriend or girlfriend: Jacqueline Sng!!!
28. Crush: Yes, two din make it, one did
29. Parents: Dad & Mum
30. Worst enemy: Singapore Education
31. Favourite online guy: catch no ball
32. Favourite online girl: oso catch no ball
33. Craziest friend: I hate crazy people
34. Advice friend: My brain is dormant...really dormany...o rly
36. Person you cry with: Ain't cried in a long long time
37. Any sisters: Me
38. Any brothers: 24 of 'em
39. Any pets: Hamster...and an aquarium of virtual fish
40. Any disease: AIDs, Gnorea, Diabetes, Hole in Heart, Brittle Bone, Cataracts...
41. Pagers: Yea...in Jurong Recycling Plant
42. Personal phone line: Duh
43. Cell phone: Motorola Razr(R.I.P) now....some nokia model i dun give a shit about
44. Pool or hot tub: Pool
45. Car: Tamiya Collection
46. Your personality: INTP?
47. Driving: Crazy Taxi
48. Room: uh..yes i have a room
49. Whats missing: Bill Gate's, Warren Buffett's & Walmart Family's wealth
50. School: Tan Nan, Hwachong, Kampong Junior College
51. Bed colour: khaki
52. Relationship with parents: Cool
.53. Believe in yourself: *Jumps off balcony and knows he won't die*
54. Believe in love at first sight: Yes, felt it, had it
55. Good listener: Despise
56. Get along well with parents: Depends
57. Save email conversations: No
58. Pray: Offers joss sticks when held at gunpoint by Dad
59. Believe in reincarnation: Yes pleas make me Alexander the Great
60. Make fun of people: Yes
61. Like to talk on the phone: Not really
62. Want to get married: Yes
63. Like to drive: Hell YEA
64. Motion sickness: No
65. Eat stem of broccoli: Yes. Not nice meh?
66. Eat chicken with fork: u eat chicken cutlet with your feet, oh yes you do
67. Dream in colour: Ain't dreamt in a long long time
68. Type with your fingers on home role: Dumb qns
69. Sleep with stuff animals: No.
70. Next to you: Ashtray
71. On the walls of your room: Photo Frames
72. On your mousepad: Laptop
73. Dream car: Sorry i prefer private planes
74. Dream date: Trekking in Mongolia
75. Dream honeymoon spot: On the bed baby!
76. Dream husband or wife: Jacqueline Sng!
77. Bedtime: I don't sleep
78. Under your bed: Parque Flooring?
79. Single most important question: Why did the Big Bang even occur?
80. Bad time of a day: During any worktime
81. Your worst fear: Failure without reason
82. The weather is: Dunno wtf u talking...its windy like hell here
83. Time: 2233
84. Date: 10 Sept 2006
85. Best trick did on someone: Drew his trouser up the HC flagpole in clear view of mainway
86. Theme song: Burn Bangla Burn!
87. Hardest thing about growing up: Losing your innocence
88. Funniest experience: When was the last time i felt really carefree?
89. Scariest experience: Falling outta boat into Great Barrier Reef...among dolphins...at 3yrs
90. Silliest thing you have ever said: Crushed my balls while dismounting parallel bars
91. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: True friends don't care
92. Worst feeling: Failure without reason
93. Best feeling in the world: First Kiss
94. people i wanna sabo into doing-->
yogi(yes u fag do it again...no cut and paste)
wilson--->ajc wushu
hwee teng -->ajc wushu
yiliang -->4P
noel -->4p
chia wei -->4p
junyong-->ajc council
dumbasses -->thats everybody on earth
jac if she'd a blog...

f u yogi!

2006-09-10T12:23:00.000+08:00

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.

Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
l
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祝你一路顺风---吴奇隆

2006-09-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

I don't usually blog with lyrics...but you guys from 4P really make me think of this...

祝你一路顺风---吴奇隆

风那一天知道你要走

我们一句话也没有说

当午夜的钟声敲痛离别的心门

却打不开我深深的沈默

adf

那一天送你送到最后

我们一句话也没有留

当拥挤的月台挤痛送别的人们

却挤不掉我深深的离愁

adf

我知道你有千言你有万语却不肯说出口

你知道我好担心我好难过却不敢说出口

adf

当你背上行囊

卸下那份荣耀我只能让眼泪留在心底

面带着微微笑用力的挥挥手

祝你一路顺风

adf

当你踏上月台从此一个人走

我只能深深的祝福你

深深的祝福你最亲爱的朋友

祝你一路顺风

adf

那一天送你送到最后

我们一句话也没有留

当拥挤的月台挤痛送别的人们

却挤不掉我深深的离愁

adf

我知道你有千言你有万语却不肯说出口

你知道我好担心我好难过却不敢说出口

adf

当你背上行囊卸下那份荣耀

我只能让眼泪留在心底

面带着微微笑用力的挥挥手

祝你一路顺风

adf

当你踏上月台从此一个人走

我只能深深的祝福你

深深的祝福你最亲爱的朋友

祝你一路顺风

2006-09-06T18:54:00.000+08:00

dont they all look like lust to you...?

2006-09-06T11:04:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Physical Touch and Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		9
Quality Time:		8
Acts of Service:		5
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		5

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

=_+"

2006-09-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

i...am....home!!! fINALLY away from that dust ridden but expensive looking houze of zhiwei's....$6000 gold clock?! like....wtf! my bday present was a gold plated model soccer table...*notes income disparity*. Play,eat,crap,sleep,goschool,play,eat,crap,go home

two more days gone from holidays. hurrr...

oh, and steve irwin is dead. Msn is killing me with turtles (tu) (tu) (tu) there!!! Been reading some people's blogs and they're commenting just how fragile life is. Life is so small, yet the ego of mankind blows it up. There are those whose names have, shall and will yet be resonated across the ages, and there are the untold billions who pass in and out beyond unremembered.

The life of steve irwin was not fragile. He lived it in an extraordinary fashion. For what is life but a medium for enrichment? He led a rugged life that managed to bring the Tv audience closer to nature, tore down the barriers of fear and apprehension for the wild. How long will it last, now that he is but a memory to many? Memories fade with time. Other Tv presenters are but shadows of his charisma...what then? ok...i admit i'm jealous of his life...i want that kinda life.

A life that burnt brightly will shine but briefly. But its afterglow will remain for some time yet. Perhaps that was what he was meant for, a dazzling personality who lit the way for Australia & wildlife conservation to progress just that tiny bit further in this murky, inky world.
Whence came the comet? Whence shall it go?

I feel like a noobie philosopher with pathetic vocabulary and intelectual ability trying to dip into the philosophy of life. Pardon my intrusion. And comments are welcome...

ok....less heavy stuff.

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours.
You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.
You are a very outgoing person. You are true to yourself, and you never hold back.
In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

first and fourth are so so so so so true...!!! The second will be true too if i had a wallet the size of eric's. As for the third....my capacity for self-delusion is beyond my own belief. Or is it? Can a casual observer enlighten me?

Finally...STOP PUTTING STUPID TURTLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE STINGRAYS!!! THEY ARE SLEAK AND ELEGANT AND DELICIOUS WITH BALACIAN CHILLI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RWAR!

hehhe....topman shopping tml. Zhiwei sponsoring 90% =D+D+D+D

2006-09-05T18:38:00.000+08:00

zhiwei's house is so dusty...my nose is acting up...my eyes are acting up...argh...*sneezes*
decided not to stay another night..
or my nose shall die!!!

8 days to your birthday!!!!

above's just a super ranom pic

2006-09-04T10:53:00.000+08:00

going zhiwei's hosue for a couple of days....hurhur mug camp wtf? hope we can study our maths...

i love you with all my soul <3

2006-09-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

Gymnatics..Gone Bad

holy moly...

2006-09-03T14:57:00.000+08:00

These are the missions of the people of the world's free, and we must again organise a band of individuals whose lives are dedicated to these missions.

They taught us that warriors and peacmakers enmesher in endless conflict, hot or cold, lose the concept of time. There are only new and previously unanticipated missions; needs for instant development and acquisition of innovative hardware to carry out the new missions; and the neccessity for instant recruitment and training of personnel for the immediate conduct of the mission. In the turbulent midst of endless conflict all of these procedures are telescoped into a multiplexed existential continuum without beginning and without end. Everything is of highest priority and utmost urgenct and when called upon the execute the mission, they go. They go as soon as they are called. They go with what they have got. They go and they execute with competence, skill and dispatch---or they die.

They also taught us to walk softly and display strength; to be wise as serpents and harmless as doves; to prepare a world for future generations that cannot yet speak for themselves; to know that actions speak louder than words and, acting as childred of the ocean, in the silence of the ocean deeps, to create a silence that is heard around the world.

2006-09-02T15:11:00.000+08:00

looking outta the window at the clouds from my bedroom...and started to think of the past

If time could turn back....
i would want to return to my life before preschool, relive what I have no memory of
i would want to travel back to perth where i spent a month living with nature, at the age of four
i would want to return to that first day in tao nan, where the world was fresh and exciting
i would want to take the the Primary 3 GEP exams all over again...seriously this time
i would want to forego the hellish three years in upper primary, where blessing came this year.
i would want to study for secondary two so that i didn't drop out of IP.
i would want to relive the wonderful time spent in OBS with the 3F people.
i would want to make good my time in 3P with those people whom have let me experience brotherly love for the first time.
i would want to forge stronger bonds with the core of 3P and the additions of 4P, our big extended band of brothers.
i would not want to not have experienced the times of 2004 and 2005 by reliving the first 14 years all over again.
[ 3p'04 . ]
[ 4P'05 . ]

an xuan tall n lanky
bryan the alien & mothership frequency guy
marcus the ostracised (currently MIA but rediscovered on 31/8/2006
chen shao the er xin & ostracised
edward the SSH pro
puikit hamster hamtaro...feminine eys...family pet!
noel the female
luo jun zi lian kuang & pro drummer
eric aka weijie imba rich, acts stupid, n thinks dota super godly
zhiwei the rich, white, plump kid
gary the idiot and my oldest friend =D
irvin softball bai lei and mountain king
jensen our chairman!
weesiang magician and king of lamers
fergen strong and silent ^_^
yiliang the fuckgirlsbutneverfertilises guy, without fertility problems or condom failures
daryl the terrorist!!! knives chairs and explosives
vei shen alexthe breakdancer
xian yong singer n lttle boiboi n armbreaker
yongjie lame jai
chia wei...plays non stop and scores non stop...tt ass!
yijie bloody big eyes *winks*
poon shi the extra kia
wenjie xiaopang
kian hao the....dunno what larh! kao bei teacher kia
zhou ren zhou gou...another kena ostracised guy

and....huxy the porn surfing illegal immigrant farmer

and of course...the first three months spent in ajc with daryl lim, wen zhao, rain& tiffany
the learning journey with rain.
wushu people from both tjc and now ajc

and that fateful korean trip where i met you my dear. I'd relive it over and over again.

Fate...what is fate? It is but a mechanism of the Ripple Effect. And the ripples brought us together

2006-09-02T12:58:00.000+08:00

had the weirdest dream last night...dreamt i was on a tiny island somewhere out at sea with nothing but 1337 tons of absolut vodka by my side and one matchbox. In order to get some ship to spot me i lit the vodka and some giant inferno leapt into the sky. Got no idea how i didnt get burnt but an aircraft crashed right over the bonfire cos it got burnt outta the sky. Then it started to rain. I woke up and rain splashing in from outside the window....wth?

that is sososo random. Must've been the (molotov) cocktails i had last nights =p
11 2 17!

2006-09-01T12:59:00.000+08:00

wonderful piece of art